swan song

she tried to come back here... but the soul isn't as chatty anymore.

she leaves you with this and wishes you do all you can to make that one dream come true!

phir milenge!

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chutti!

a beautiful sense of ease engulfs her each time she sets out to travel.. though off late she's realized she's become super comfortable in the 1 hall kitchen she happily calls home!

she's on her way to Kolkata... a wedding, a tattoo, friends and some wine! so it's a lot of reasons to celebrate!! (anyone wants to tell her what to do and where to go in call is most welcome!! she can do with all the travel advice!) Speaking of travel advice.. a newly married friend who's moved to Cal says "get yourself a tube of mosquito repellent... the damn BUGgers are everywhere!!" ;)

it's nice to have even the mere trace of a family around you (for short spurts in time) and this is a full blown big fat Bengali wedding! What's a punju babe (yes - purely self proclaimed) doing at a Bengali wedding..? Punju babe's bua married into a bengali family.. so in the interest of national integration this part of the family is Bengali!

bhai's back from Dubai and it's a joy to have him back... it just feels more comforting... as friends have started to move out of Namma Bengaluru to Aamchi Mumbai it's getting quiet... Bhai is great company and great entertainment... needless to say he loves to pamper her! ;) And so he is duly woken up at 6:30 AM.. not allowed brush and told to sit beside her as she tries to catch the airport bus in her trusted jonga! Mad dash... bus has just left the bus stop closest to home... we see it turning away from the next one and then they finally overtake it and stop it! don't kill her for it but she wants to say "life nahi hai laddoo" :P

her lifetime itch has been the excess baggage - not per what the airline allows... she's luckily kept "just" below that all her life except for a couple occasions...! But be it 2 days or 10... it continues to be an overstuffed backpack and a laptop bag bursting at the seams with stuff she couldn't fit in the backpack!! People - serious tips on travelling light needed... please do remember that she is a Virgo! ;)

Apart from the tumults of travel it's been a good week... she's learning to ignore work.. (to the extent that she's on leave during a client visit!)... she's also become fairly more impulsive! (to think that age would mellow... not likely!) A Monday night at Java city for good coffee and chicken lasagna... a Thursday night with bhai at the new Tunday Kebab's place in Koramangala! She was wrapping up work as bhai came over and then it was an experiment in apple vodka and litchi juice... (they vowed never to play around with the sanctity of litchi juice by mixing it with flavored vodka ever again!) Well they land up at the Tunday Kebab place at 10... the choices are no brainers.. the only mistake is the mutton korma which tastes like chyavanprash (but tends to grow on you after 2 bites) - and they are well fed on scrumptious food and out by 10:25!! now THAT ladies and gentlemen is FAST food!!!

so such are the joys of a beautiful life... compounded by this conversation...

Roomie from hostel: gud gud.. u will turn i guess 26 this year

atleast start thinkin abt marriage

Yours Truly: i have turned 26 last year sweetheart!

Roomie from hostel: ohhhhh

Yours Truly: but i'm totally enjoying this... friday ko i was out of office early to pack and stuff - last min shopping.. and a guy walks up to m and asks - "do u stay in jnc hostel?"

jnc is a graduation college!!!!!

Roomie from hostel: ha ha ha... gud gud

Yours Truly: and then shekhar for some vague reason thinks im just 21!!! (grinned and blushed for a second time! :P)

and now u've also set me back by a year!

:) i like this!!

Brahmaz Mistake... Really!

A long and peaceful friday of lazing around in bed and waking up only to eat had plans of culminating in a nice peaceful dinner with friends (and that too without the liquids known to make it a terror-ible saturday morning!) It was nothing more than what Dire Strait puts as..

"Stepping out Angellucci's for my coffee beans

checking out the movies and magazines.."

Apart from one tiny thing.. Granpa had to be dropped to the bus stop since he was on his way to Chennai for a jamming session with Brahmaz Mistake (who were readying to perform Live in namma Bengaluru at Kyra this coming weekend!) Whose to know whether it was the joy of a huge bowl of spinach meatball soup or the satisfaction brought forth by the chocolate shake that triggered her to insanely suggest... that lets all go. Two pounced at the idea and the one remaining was given no choice!

After making use of the washroom services provided by the cafe the next stop was a petrol pump to tank up on the gas and reserve on the petrol... And well... with one man and his backpack off went the four of them! The other three mentally resigned to using their fingers as a brush the next morning!

Take off: 10:30 PM. The joys of the elevated highway experienced as various forms of rock played on the car stereo and lo and behold they were on the Chennai highway! Yes 'when we remember we are all mad, life stands explained!' A couple of calls were made to "to be harassed hosts" with them being warned that we will touchdown by 3/4 AM to their beautiful newly wed abode!

Stops for loading up on peppermint and water and pee-ing later as conversation started to mellow (the excitement still soared) and yours truly at the wheel dodging trucks and buses as her jonga responded with wonderful ease.. the music changed to bollywood item numbers! They are after all the very sing-along-keep-you-awake numbers perfectly suited for the dance into the night! From 'Mai disco.. Tu disco.. Duniya hai ek Disco... Disco 82!' to 'A remix of Ishq tera tadpave' to 'No one so saaxy in the whole galaaxy' to 'Laila o Laila' they sung along to it all! Well the three of them sung along while Bhai's avid protests were turned a deaf ear to!

Well... in the neighbourhood of 3 AM they begin the house hunting for the beautiful home of the newly wed couple also playing host to the bride's parents (but were given no choice except to provide us shelter for the night ;) )A couple of roundabouts in jalebi town and we were where we wanted to be with full confidence exhibited by the lady navigator!

Halla Bol! ;) We tried to be as quiet as possible... as she made herself comfortable on a gadda in the living room she looked at the couple and mentioned "you guys should sleep" and pat came the reply "abey mere gadde pe baith ke bolti hai so jao!" ~ sheepish grin ~ Extra gaddas were found and the living room turned into a dorm as these 4 madhatters and the lovely couple snoozed into the night!

Whose to know when the world around woke up! She woke up when she heard her name being mentioned in pun to another newly wed couple who obviously had the decency to arrive to another fellow couple's house at a more earthly hour of say 8 / 9 AM (it's tough to be sure with the beautiful stupor of a back straightening sleep which is most welcome after a long drive!). The smells of exquisite hot coffee, the luck of cold Chennai whether and the satisfaction of a yummy warm home cooked breakfast! Kudos to the hospitality at such short notice!

Well.. it goes on to become the story of borrowed t-shirts, face washes, combs and kajals to make themselves presentable for the rest of the day! Ah yes... the plan was to drive back the same afternoon... but as the powers that be spun the web the plan became to jam along and leave on Sunday afternoon (which needless to say stretched to evening) ;) Again the protests of a pretty protesting bhai fell on deaf ears and he was silenced into a nodding agreement.

Meanwhile she was patting herself on the back for accomplishing this night driving feat (the first of its kind undertaken by her.. she's always had a qualified co driver to take over as needed on other occasions!) So well.. she takes a bow! :)

De Mello's studio beckoned and the sound of muzik was soul stirring.. a practice cum jamming session is always fun and this one even more so as the protesting bhai discovered his talent for being a 'drumductor' (akin to an orchestra conductor but with instructions being actioned out only to the drummer who had a penchant for forgetting Audioslave's Be Yourself!). As the drummer's bro decided to sit at the drums all heads turned and a conversative silence fell over the studio! His 'sound check' like drum roll matched beautifully by the Lead Guitarist was mesmerizing! Echoes of 'isko baadme layenge drums pe nahi to expectation high ho jayega' reverberated alongwith the applause! Good? He was brilliant!!

The Bass Guitarist and his beautiful professional photographer of a wife lugged around the laptops and the camera equipment to make the band look good on a poster! The moment was achieved outside a Yamaha store on it's 'perfect' steps with minor experiments in light! All this post lunch and post another session at jamming just before dinner beckoned! (yeah they're a lot who likes to eat so the penchant for food is shared apart from it being just the muzik!)

The night found the four runaways at the Lead Guitarist's abode whose lovely mum made it home for all of them! The girls were given a comfortable change of clothes and our poor guitarist went "aila! teen teen mummy" as he saw them in mommy dearest's clothes! Another restful night and a yummy breakfast of parathas, aloo, apples and awwwsum chai later they were on their way to the studio. Oh yes.. they managed to have a bath this morning however the clothes continue to be the same and the brush was still their precious index fingers!

"I am a man who walks alone

And when I'm walking a dark road

At night or strolling through the park

When the light begins to change

I sometimes feel a little strange

A little anxious when it's dark.

Fear of the dark,fear of the dark"

deserves special mention for it almost cost our vocalist his voice! ;)

A takeaway lunch of kathi rolls and delightful milkshakes found them as they practised! This she figures inspired Bhai who decided to fiddle with the guitar, the drummer (yeah the awwsum one) and the lead guitarist to take on the avatar of the vocalist as they belted out something totally amazing however unknown even to them! They hope someone's deciphered the lyrics with the recording that was made! ;) Ladies and Gentlemen... ~ Applause! ~

With this and with the sounds of blackest eyes, imagine and fear of the dark in her head it was time to drop one newly wed to the station for them to make it back to hyd and for them to tank up on gas again and head to... "Sweet Home Alabama".

Lots of hugs and "cya next weekend" later they were sad to say but they were on their way!

Thus began a frantic search for Red Bull! Several petrol pumps and tiny stores later just as they hit the highway awaiting them was a CCD! Screeching off it and stopping right behind an innova their moment of eureka had been achieved. A flask was dug out from the car boot which limitedly keeps coffee warm.. 4 energy drinks and a flask full of coffee alongwith 2 boxfulls of mint and they were set for take off! Little did they realize that there's little that replaces a red bull.. and not the least of it is something called a "Cloud 9" whose taste went from being described as rose water to rotten grape juice to water mixed with gulal! ;)

The drive back was peaceful with a large number of stops to pee providing sufficient opportunity to stare at the starry sky above, breathe in fresh air, and spray on water into tired eyes! The music continued to be variants of rock this time around! :D ~ small mercies ~

Cheers to a whirlwind surprise weekend with na rehne ka thikana, na khane peene ka thikana!

"You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one"

- John Lennon

PS: Hope to see you at Kyra on Sunday where Brahmaz Mistake is performing Live!

drops of jupiter

it's weirdly fun to drive to office at an unearthly hour of 7 AM on a saturday morning... but it's strangely pacifying that she enjoyed it coz that's what the next 4 days are like! it's a quiescence that fills her heart as she races through whatever few cars decide to be around at that time... and magically songs to stir her up also found their way on the car stereo!

the weekend has been luck since she's been able to come back by noon and crash! her body stirs sometime in the evening and an alarming look at the clock says 'hey get up and have a bath! u have a movie to catch!' lucky for her Granpa also decides to be a 'bit' late and well off they go to Lido Mall to catch Ishqiya... halfway there Granpa asks "but where are we going?" and after a moment of profound silence as the traffic scene is patently intercepted she lets out a loud and overwhelming "oh shit!"... They were headed in the udderly opposite direction of another theatre and well... luckily a couple of u-turns could salvage the situation!! That said she had botched up earlier in the AM by paying 700 bucks for tickets that come at 440 - thankfully to later realize that she had paid for the popcorn, coke combo and by some twist of luck that for a change worked in her favour she had saved 61 bucks!

This is where it had started to become 'that kind of day!' ;) So after conversation over cardamom tea they made their way into the theatre... enjoyed the movie.. saw it till the closing credits (for after all 700 bucks had to be vasoolofied!) and then decided to meet a long lost buddy on MG Road! They hit the new soup bar at Spencers "Au Bon Pain" and had a delightful experience with the varieties of soups, sandwiches and deserts! You should go - you will come back changed at the foodie experience!

Speaking of food she had tried an experiment in her kitchen which strangely (yes you could say it was a fairly strange weekend) was nice! It was a lil beet of jeera, sautéed with some palak leaves, variously colored capsicum and sprouts - mixed in with leftover rice - seasoned with soya sauce, chilli sauce, mustard sauce and an egg cracked in! Voila - Salad ala Fried Rice! ;)

Yes food has always offered her complacence and her girth does speak for it! ;) But she figures a few healthy choices (as she has now consciously started making) can keep her safe! So on a slow sunday afternoon as she OD'd on veggie shopping and made her way back home she knew something in her heart... she will leave you with two sets of lyrics to tell you the story and continue to smile mysteriously with a twinkle in her eye (she's found her twinkle after a long time.. and plans to celebrate it with chocolate pastry - a li'l chocolate here and there she maintains is still healthy! ;) )

If the question is...

"I got wiring loose inside my head

I got books that I never ever read

I got secrets in my garden shed

I got a scar where all my urges bled

I got people underneath my bed

I got a place where all my dreams are dead

Swim with me into your blackest eyes"

- Porcupine Tree

Then it was only natural for the answer to be laden with her favourite character of the english language...

"Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?

One without a permanent scar

And then you missed me

While you were looking for yourself out there?

Now that she's back from that soul vacation

Tracing her way through the constellation, hey

She checks out Mozart while she does Tae-Bo

Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?

Did you finally get the chance

To dance along the light of day

And head back to the Milky Way?

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?

Was it everything you wanted to find?

And then you missed me

While you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze-dried romance

Five-hour phone conversation

The best soy latte that you ever had, and me?

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?

Did you finally get the chance

To dance along the light of day

And head back toward the Milky Way?"

- Drops of Jupiter

placid waters

it's been a couple weeks... the great Bar has visited and passed back into his hibernation! it was a nice roller coaster of drinking and eating the 5 odd days he decided to make his presence felt!

Granpa's getting old and your truly is getting fat.. so we can use someone tall to change the scenery for us! ;) A trip to outside of town to quietly sit by a lake.. to talk n talk n talk and then to create noise pollution by blaring music on the car stereo while clicking away on the camera! the poses (and the posers) are all amazing!

Coffee.. tea and a few conversations.. her propensity to talk over the phone has increased by leaps and bounds.. she's kinda dreading her phone bill!

The 'parents' have begun finding 'the eligible bachelors' and she has half a feeling that more than 70% of them will have their cars toilet papered! ;)

The most dreaded time in a working year aka the performance rating decided to go well and the boss tells her to stop working! ;) Lord may help if she decides to take him literally!

The fridge was stocked up with fruits and veggies and she plans to go the ghaas phoos way (whatever happened to saving chickens and eating vegetarians!) for Feb! May the force be with her!! (she blames it on the insanity of a passing moment!)

~ that's all folks! looking forward to a new tattoo sometime in march! it's gotten too real to be ignored! (which reminds me.. i have to think up one 'more' for theadventuresofatraveller!)

(it's too settled to be the start of a year - she needs to stir things up!)

Makar Sankranti

the day dawned.. bright with promise! she had a work call to wrap up... ~ugh! However she had done the beautiful deed of setting up an out of office.. and declining her evening meetings by categorically telling people she was going to watch a play and hence won't be available!

post work call she had a nice loooong conversation which led to a dumb smile on her face for the day... and then well... it's a holiday.. it's peaceful.. snoooooooze!

she wakes up to hunger and the need to check some mail but not the wish to c(r)ook! and so that's what she does... picks up her ol' faithful (which happens to be her trusted thinkpad).. freshens up into a vague gypsy skirt (of course the t-shirt as well! :P) and sets out to a quiet lil cafe to occupy the corner seat in it's balcony!

it's a fuzzy evening... a cappuccino with a whiff of cinnamon and then some smoked chicken can only make you smile some more as old old buddies catch up on gtalk while she discovers her need to write! a while later it's time for the play... and granpa aka Mite makes his grand entrance to pick her up.. confirms that his booking has been made for the play (where someone says if you booked it it's there! ask at the counter once you get there!... fair enough!)

she drives through namma bengaluru's holiday evening traffic and they make it in the nick of time.. granpa steps to the counter where he is rudely told "hey! this is what they gave us and this is what we have.. ur not on it!" Furious ol gramps tries to call the ticket lady and gets no response... even more furious he messages the ticket lady to say "u dint book us n we r here!". The place luckily has a lil cafe where they serve chai to peace out grampy...! Halfway through a cuppa he gets a call from ticket lady... post staring at the ringing monstrosity for a few seconds he figures it's a good idea to take the call... and so he does. ~ahem! only to be made to realize that... "sir.. your sms said 15th and not 14th! ur booked for the 15th". Lo and behold follows a litany of apologies from granpa who feels terrible about ticking off a lady for no fault of hers! (he's cute that ways!)... :D

Ta Da.. two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl.... amends are made as friends are called to figure options.. it's zeroed down to a new italian takeaway place in Jayanagar called "Veeke's and Thomas" and then a romantic comedy! (granpa got lucky she decided to pick something else instead.. ;) ). So there we were at V&T surrounded in it's comfortable ambiance of white cane and warm people with a delectable menu at our disposal! Seating space is enough if u;ve ordered and are waiting with 2 tables to serve that purpose... and the music is soft and classical rock at a very conversational volume! After figuring 3 types of pasta's (halfs - yes they have half portions too.. variety really is the spice of a pleasant bengaluru evening) and 1 shepherd's pie their heart is taken my the 'mango cheese cake'! This much for 250 bucks! Yes - pause and stare! Some of the yummiest Italian food at this price.. in recyclable packaging! 'Italian Street Food!'

Well... they carry their food (devoid of plastic packaging) and drive off to pick up the 'romantic comedy!' Flipping through the pages this catches both their eyes... 'Dogs. Donkeys. Denial. There's no place like home!' and well that's what it becomes! (yes.. the slow romance of the evening has gotten to her as she picks up the stereo's remote instead of her cell phone while getting out of the jonga!)

The setup is complete... the forks are laid.. the bottle of water kept handy.. and the movie is on! Cheers to the li'l joys of a big life!

The slow pace of the movie with the delectable taste of the food recognizable in distinct spices peaces them out as both forget the turmoils of work and recollect their joys!

The food and the movie both come highly recommended! And here's where to find the takeout:

South Bangalore Kitchen, 22, Ground floor, 5th Cross, 24th Main Road, JP Nagar, Phase 2

Ph: +919972133533

Bon Apetit!

bas yun hi..

life has decided to always happen to her in various ways...

say work.. and the good growth that happened.. it was a project she refused.. and then eventually it made it her way coz the other person got sacked.. (yeah.. imagine the horror of doing a project like that!).. but it's changed her world... and here she is standing on a soap box and telling world how much she loves her job! (~touchwood!)

a konkan trip... it brought people and places closer to her in ways she had not thought.. it's given her great buddies and a love for sea food as well! :D here she is doing bbq's with the very best of them eating it merrily! such is the simple warmth of life.. (and several other trips)

her car.. her happy lil jonga! Bengaluru.. the autos! how she managed to save up enough she'll never know.. destined? just about maybe!! it personifies what it has proudly written on it's black lil behind.. "every declaration of independence is an act of adventure!"

her lava lamp - she can stare at it making funny shapes at her.. it'll warm her heart.. it'll make her thoughtful.. it'll simply be the source that silences the jangling after a long day and peace-ifies her!

her love of people.. which gives into love of places so that she can escape the people! ;) the idle chatter of a warm cafe.. the lonely walker down the road... the ability to get lost in the eyes of fellow travellers... it keeps her busy and keeps her warm.. !

her fondness of the guitar... it was just a moment in time as the six strings were strummed and she stood there frozen with her soul in a frenzy!

her paintings... she started off with practised scenery... now it's just abstracts that fill her soul and pour on her canvas! she loves the conversations they create... she loves being able to look at them and see their meaning change as life around her changes!

and then conversations such as these to keep her amused while she sips on blackberry ice tea and munches on apple cake...

barman: i was in SFO this new year

that the gay capital of US

we were sick of seeing guys together

finallly in the club we so some guy girl thing happening

me: ok so u mean ladka log (and not ladki log) maaro line 2u?

barman: y will ladka log

i meant in SFO.. there the gay rules are very liberal

(here comes the high point!)

barman: party mein i stuck between 2 women

me: ahaan!

barman: gay they were

me: u lived every man's secret fantasy!

(the 'climax!')

barman: 10 mins dance ke baad paata chala they were dancing with each other and not with me

me: :D :D :D :D

barman: i felt used

me: ok i take back the fantasy wala remark...

but dada think about it

'used by 2 women' - can it get better? ;)

barman: not really

me: :D such is life dada..

Maja ni Life..

Scene 1: Punju surrounded by 3 Gujjus who giver her credit for finding the 3 most unique gujjus of this world! (well.. she agrees without protest coz u have to meet them to figure it!)

Scene 2: These mad hatters are at Mondy's in aamchi Mumbai ordering pot loads of food and pitcherfuls of beer! And then... she spots this lonely firang babe looking remorseful and having a cup of coffee...

Scene 3: Wild persuasion to get Mommy aka Shekhar to talk to her. When all else fails the classics of "truth or dare" come to the fore! She walks upto the babe and says hi! gets her name for him and walks back..

Scene 4: The dude "finally!" (after the 4th pitcher of beer and the sheer persuasive prowess of your truly - as the other 2 gujjus watch the show) walks upto her!!

Scene 5: He has a 15-20 minute long nice animated conversation with her!! She's alone in the city.. last day.. stays in Bandra... wants to roam around but is a lil scared...

Scene 6: He walks back beer mug in hand... and... he hasn't asked her for her email id even.. (~thwacks head and vows to not do so much mehnat ever!)

Well... it's a city that always proves fun and always rejuvenates! A walk down the causeway and some more beer at 'harbour view'. (And the view is amazing!!) she meets a couple new buds Budweiser! ;) Twilight sets it's curtain and it's time to head to the other side of town.. away from the bustle and into the night.. but before the night settles there's stil 2 gujjus and her and a local train!!

Conversation starts with: you were alone at home? the bar was accessible? you dint tell me? and defense is put up to say you said you will be with your girlfriend and ends on how much cleavage was the 'new bud' showing - and when a guy calls it obscene what's a girl to say! ;) By the time the 3 wellas decided to get off the entire train compartment knew that they eat merry, drink merry, are nerdy, goofy and really don;t care.. the expressions they got were "hey don't go.. we have to go all the way upto virar.. who will entertain us!!" ;)

On her way home she sensed a beautiful blue aura with a demure yellow star on one shoulder and a grinny naughty one on the left one! It felt nice to be able to feel the colors again.. even more so to have felt such happy ones!

Time to packup as the stars also begin to hide... 2 hours of sleep at night.. you obviously need to expect snoring on the aircraft from mumbai to namma bengaluru (esp given that it decides to cradle her while hovering for an extra 45 mins in the air!) The gujju back home goes "think like a gujju! kam paison me zyada ghoomne ko mila!" :D :D

A sub packed.. a cab ride... car retrieved.. and a dash to office.. thus begins the new year.. :) And it's feeling good! for now she sits looking at her lava lamp making weird shapes while listening to Mark Knopfler and soaks in the good karma!

And oh ya.. what would you call "majaa ni life" in russian? (for the benefit of the gujju who was too shareef to get an email id!) ;)

how happy how high!

it was a fun evening at home with the bar at easy access... the bbq sizzling... and chocolate desserts oozing sin..! and we decided to read each others pasts, presents and futures with cards!

closed out on 2009 with a card reading (out of regular playing cards) which said that there's bits of turmoil and change is for the best! It asked her to let the past stay right there and not take into the next year... it indicated an engagement or a wedding...

rang in 2010 with a tarot card reading which was saying the same things as the previous one... and it said the engagement is either 10 weeks from now or July! (~ laughed!) And then cards of family indicated the same for her! (~ freaked!)

it's a great year based on the fork she chooses.... destiny has been known to find her on forks she's been desperate to avoid! so for now.. she takes it as it come! (but 2 readings from 2 different people on 2 different sets of cards saying exactly the same things did freak her out a bit! and... both readers mentioned they had never seen such clear cards before!)

and oh yes... she will continue to 'over indulge' in the good things of life and not manage to save much! (dang! she really thought she could!!) ;)

apart from that she's been thinking she will start exercising, eating 'healthy' (healthy is not equal to less! :P ), writing (she figures it keeps her happy) and reading! (she's been enjoying catching up on all the reading this quiet period has allowed... she hopes to continue!)

speaking of reading here's an excerpt from Hugh Macleod's http://gapingvoid.com ... wishing you find food for your soul this year!

Welcome to the Hunger...

The Hunger to do something creative.

The Hunger to do something amazing.

The Hunger to change the world.

The Hunger to make a difference.

The Hunger to enjoy one’s work.

The Hunger to be able to look back and say, Yeah, cool, I did that.

The Hunger to make the most of this utterly brief blip of time Creation has given us.

The Hunger to dream the good dreams.

The Hunger to have amazing people in our lives.

The Hunger to have the synapses continually fired up on overdrive.

The Hunger to experience beauty.

The Hunger to tell the truth.

The Hunger to be part of something bigger than yourself.

The Hunger to have good stories to tell.

The Hunger to stay the course, despite of the odds.

The Hunger to feel passion.

The Hunger to know and express Love.

The Hunger to know and express Joy.

The Hunger to channel The Divine.

The Hunger to actually feel alive.

The Hunger will give you everything. And it will take from you, everything. It will cost you your life, and there’s not a damn thing you can do about it. But knowing this, of course, is what ultimately sets you free.

... and oh yeah... it started with wine and ended on a caramel liqueur with the works in between! (she really believed she could fly!) ;)

There is no charge for Awsomeness!

And sometimes it's the simplest things that flash in your face and you stop in tracks.. here she was sitting with a glass of wine as it struck her.. "hey.. take it as it comes!". In that moment it was so profound it took away all her fears.. it lightened mountains off her and she breathed easy!! :)

She's daring to hope again.. after ages... keep your fingers crossed!

Meanwhile her lil 2 year old brat has been getting her to discover laughter and he's her lil Kung Fu Panda!! :D The latest off him is "I'm going to Thailand to meet nice nice Divas!"

Skadoosh!