Chaos as it reigns

An incomplete painting stares at her... an inspiration tends to grip...

An obsessive compulsive cooking disorder..... and a desperate attempt to lose some weight beckons!

Confusion abounds: Wagon R New vs 2nd Hand Jeep... vs even a cycle u know!!

Another tattoo she's been wishing for!

A wish list that extends from microwave safe baking dishes to plants she wants to grow!!!

Scattered, cluttered.... Grinning at her own mess!!

stocked up fridge... canvases she can paint on... t-shirts she can mess with... wires... some cardboard... a swiss knife restored ;) .... a few crazy ideas in her head... a ladder she wants to get... a few pots to grow some stuff.. a lot of her willing to burst out and express itself in myriad ways...!

10 - Ode To Scooby...

Paheli... !

Over the past few days this is what life has been like and the songs been a constant hum in the head! :)



Work's been crazy.. home's been a haven... friends have been the joy.. he has been the peace and there have been moments of quiescence.. :)

Escaped!

And she ran away for the weekend to a tiny li'l place to find herself! She's come back refreshed and with a new lease on life...!

These pictures tell her story like words could probably never! : The Album

And the song in her head can be found here: Indian Ocean - Boll Weevil

I let my thoughts run amok.. I let the world stand and stare... I let my spirit flow free and passionate.. I do whatever comes to my whimsy... I wield a brush if that's where my peace is... I wield a pen and let the feelings flow... I even wield a knife and invent in the kitchen... and when my spirit dictates it.. I dance!

I don't feign my freedom... I am free!

Soulflower

She wonders if you've wondered about the image of the soulflower on the blog...

Well... what does it means to her? It's an incomplete bud... it's surrounded by protrusions (thorns maybe?!) It's her soul... always searching... always feeling... sometimes ensconced... always free... sometimes silent... othertimes chaotic... sometimes dreaming... always observing... sometimes smiling... sometimes still..!

And this soulflower has become a part of her... it's a tattoo now! Loads o thanks to 'Russell', the person who did the tattoo! Russell's studio has an aura all it's own. located in a silent sleepy part of Bengaluru called Kamanahalli, the studio is a artfully placed a few steps from a coconut tree in the centre of the road! With a Tibetan shawl as a curtain and a wall with an angel fairy rising from the flames... it mesmerized you the minute you walk in! The walls are his 'guestbook' with scrawls from all happy customers! You don't have a choice.. you will be happy once you go to him!! A tattoo is yes not painless.. but definitely (agreeing with a wall scrawl here) less painful than getting eyebrow threaded! (n you have to be a girl or totally kinky to know that pain!) :D

A lighting engineer for the concerts like Whitney Houston's.. Russell turned to tattooing jus coz he was bored with life! Got himself a motor, and other tools and built himself a tattoo drill! Lo and behold! Has 15 tattoos of which several have been a self tattoo... and 1 is in progress... the description of the in progress.. 'a dragon... another dragon below it.. and castle in ruins... flames.. darkness...the entire landscape!' He knows his stuff so well that there's jus one word to describe him: "Brilliant!" (Thanks Russ! :) )

Here's the work of Art! :)

And Russell can be contacted at: 9845588748 :)

Well.. the thereafter found her helping the Barwala move and setup house! It's a lovely place on the rooftop and for theirs to use for barbecues, beer and Floyd nights! :) She figures she was too much help coz by the end of it the market at the new place and the landlord all thought she was his 'wife!' (a voice inside her went meep.. double meep... meep meep and more meep!!!) :D

Home tweet Home!

And so she shifted! :D With her mushtandas in tow helpin her out with the stuff that they say is definitly more than what a family also needs! And has had her vadda praa complaining that ur house needs cupboards first and then anythin else!! Through the narrowest of stairs, her stuff was carried by the mushtandas who were the left huffing and puffing (literally...! :D) She knows she would go pretty darned insane without the jing-bang around! (ahem! yes she is insane... jus not pretty darned yet!) :D

Shifted into this tiny lil 1bhk (1 hk actually!) which is one of those extra rooms that you have on the roof ! :) The rest of the terrace is hers to call her own! She finds herself sitting at the door most evenings and jus looking up to the sky to find the moon peeping from behind the palm trees!

She wakes up each morning to sunlight filtering through the curtains... she knows she's slept well... she can laze around for hours on end! She can read, she can paint... she can explore, feel and create!

"Sittin' on my own
Chewin' on a bone
A thousand million
Miles from home
When Something hit me
Somewhere right between the eyes"

(it was Me!)

The week this week!

And as they celebrated the Barwala's birthday with Scotch, Sutta and (no 3rd S now!) a Zippo it was a lovely day! :) It's been a roller coaster week and weekend.... with a Monday off where the week went none of them knew... and then the weekend was this huge party of sorts this time!! After the weekend most of them were sleep deprived!!!!!

She's moving house... biiig step in her life is the feeling! And the experience is teaching her lots with no mum and dad around to pamper her and put everything in place for her... from finding the place to packing this up to setting the new one up.... the fridge, the address transfers, the household stuff... the financials!!!! She knows she;s growing up! And some experience this is!

She figures that's why she's sleepless! All she can think of is the big move! :)

(This one's a ramble of what's going on in her life.... next post from new home probably!) :)

Luv ya all!

ethereal...!

a bike ride! (on the beast of em all!)

a secluded beach!

the ocean floor

darkness

sand ripples


rocks

shells

a walk to remember!

mangroves


a moment... shhh!

sun tan

dreams (nightmares?!).. shared

dhaabe di chef! :D

a river dry

a dam still standing!

a village


meandering

wandering souls! ('a lost young petal wandering souls.. i see the dream you seek!')

hands

creating

dirt and grime

nature's own!

constipation?! :D

"she!"


connections...

nostalgia

music

apparitions

foooooo..d!

fuzzy

kebab and the haddi! :D

luchi aaloo

hideaways!

78mm

travelogues

stories

lives less ordinary

mumbai


taxi (aey hip hopper!) :D

girl talk

the 32nd floor


soul searching

the fire in his eyes!

rut

roll

slow

get to know! :)

pink... (pink floyd.. pinky singh and pink walls!)

her paintings on his walls...

random ramblings (as usual nay?!)

scribble

cafe universal


tulleho


tanker

fight club

notes to remember

a code of conduct

fallouts

a new freedom

sparkle in her eyes

song in her head

dance in her step

a big warm hug!

and then....

Picture perfect!

:) Om Happiness Namah!

Friday night: Friends, playful banter, beer, laughter! :)

Extended Friday night: 2 hours sleep, a will to complete the painting.. :) mission successful!

Saturday: Girlliiieeee! :))) Mish n Motee! Soulmates bond!

Extended Saturday: Mommy, Mish, Motee! Johnny Gaddar... gupshup! :)

Sunday: The kitchen of heaven! Happy cooking! Happy eaters! :) A vintage furniture shop... visions of a dream home! Friends, coffee and music! :)

An exploration of sorts...

And she finished reading Shantaram...

When she had picked it up for the first time it was the monsoons in Bangalore and she had started exploring this new city! She related to the book on most every page... her immediate reaction, 'i wish i had written this book!'

As she let the last pages of the book slip between her thoughts and fingers she realized that this was infact an extreme version of all our stories.. life takes us various ways... how we deal with them, how we get weak, how we come out strong, how we sail and how we float, how we dream and how we give up... how belief finds us.. how we change... how life encompasses us and how we find in it the answers to our various questions...!

She just has this to say, "I’ve never been so lost...so confused.... so ambitious.... so restless.... so volatile.... so weak.... so fat...so juvenile...so smug.... so full of joy.... so wanderlust.... so bewildered.... so detached...so lazy....so stoned........" - attributed to Motuu.

:) mood is yes pondering and thoughtful.. but anyways... work has changed a whole lot and dealing with it is taking its toll... meanwhile there's a painting waiting to be completed and a few incompletes also begging to have their way found..! plan to get around to those this week!

What was special was finding a new friend and getting closer to an old one... :) A walk together and a few crazy conversations... with her singing a range of songs from 'oasis' to 'aasamaan me... laakhon taare!'

Have a nice week people! :)