Princess September... Oops! January i mean... :-)

Ok.... she owes an explanantion for her "missing person" status!! Its been over 10 days... she's been out for that long now!! :-) n they've been beautiful!

It was a wedding... a very special friend's wedding! I call her 'Princess!' n gosh!! was she lookin exquisite?!! It was amazing! There was lots of work... i was the 'bridesmaid!' :-) n i loved every lil bit of it! From the mehndi (where her hairband was a pair of Chanel gogs!!!), to the masti(ek taraf bandooke aur dusri taraf bhangra!), to the dance, to getting her ready (ummmm.... 4 times!!!! exquisite each time!), to getting the groom to wake up his family for the wedding! (:-D at 2 in the morning, just before the feras the tired baraatis decided to conveniently doze off while leaving the groom in the lurch and looking for someone to get him married!!!!)

I have never seen a more radiant bride... she was every bit the Princess! Beautiful in flowing pink... with shades of rust and red off and on! Each role carried out with easy elan! (Only the saris sambhaloed by urs truly... yep she got complimented for her sari wearing skills!) :-) Yeah yeah yeah... smile on!! I was also a permanent supply of tissues, last minute help, sambhaloin her pallus (which her husband has now dutifully taken over) and jus pamperin her a wee bit extra! (after all, it was her day!) Miss ya babes! Hope ya dint cry too much!!!

Well... it doesn't end here.. after a straight 24 hrs awake and with barely 5 hours of sleep in more than 48 hours and a night in the train before that, I was back in the train, cold n freezing, tired and sleepy!! (n soon i go back to being annoying by referring to myself in the third person!) :-D

Slipping....

Something is slipping away... she can't quite place her finger on it... u know like that crazy feeling that you get up with which says, 'it's different... in an empty sort of way!' n she's kinda confused whether to be happy or sad... (ya rite... like if she's happy about the space or sad about the emptiness..!) there's a conflict of emotions... It's like she's found something within her... and to nurture that she needs to let go of something else... But does she want to let go?? Is she even comfortable with that 'new' something?? Or is it old?? Did she lose it somewhere along the way....??

A few more questions:
"How much does it take to have a point of view? How much to defend it? How much does it take to look into someone's eyes when you apologize? How much to look the other way? To squeeze every moment for what its worth? How much does it take to promise yourself that you'll live life on your own terms? How much does it take to keep your word??"

It takes li'l to reclaim your life! (Credit: a Tata Safari Ad at the back of an old tattered magazine)

But then she asks... "What life? What do you wanna reclaim??" And a voice screams, "Pretty much evevrything!" She shuts it down... it reappears... and something begins to slip.... She doesn't know what... She doesn't know why.... !!

Woman with a Mission!!

Ok!! She knows why she was feeling the way she was feeling yesterday!! It's the mess food!!!! It makes her sad!!!!!

She had a ball of a time today!!! The day started with a business law ka lecture... I know i'm doin something wrong u know!! It's like kahin par bhi baith jaun... side me, beech me, first bench or last bench!! The prof always finds me n mujhe dekh dekh k padhaata hai!!!!!!! Kambakht sunna padta hai dhyaan se us lecture me!!! :-D

Well... the ball begins after that! Main aur meri roomie:........!!! We went out to town today!! City lights always give you a feel good feeling!! Gorged at US Pizza!! Loads of salad n soup n chocolate brownie!!!! Fir kya tha!! Shuru hua Mission Skypak!! The man of her dreams had managed to run up his credit card even in a small place like Kakinada and she was hunting around for a place to deposit cheques!!! Her first encounter: The petrol pump guy who stares at her like she's just asked for a 'space alien' instead of a skypak!! Her next encounter: the counter guy at Planet Health who inevitably though it was some new fanled medicine that she was asking for!!!! (Bachaaaaooooo!!!!) Success at last at another petrol pump where the petrol pump guy looks at HER like she's a bimbo who can't see that bright yellow n blue thing right under nose!!! :-D

Interspersed in between: A trip to the mochi!! It was a tough find!! She managed to tear of the sole of her "precious" Rs150 chappals from linking road that she's positively fallen in love with!! What ensued was a weak cry for 'fevi kwik!' The question: Why fevi kwik n not the poor guy who carries around a box of needles n nails n glues to fix exactly such mishaps!! Well.. the reason: Itni bade shehar me ek mochi me pichhle 15 mahino se dhoond rahi hooon!!!!!!! The poor frazzled guy who sold her the fevi kwik manages to control the weird look on his face as he gives her directions to the Mochi!! (Glory be!! there was one around after all!!!!!) Well alls well that ends well!! Her prized possession is well repaired!!

Some more interspersion (is that even a word!! :-D) - The roomie and she make a trip to Star India Bazaar (The ahmedabadi version of a big bazaar)!! Why?? They are on Mission Aalu churao!!! Now she needs a potato to paint a few paws on a t-shirt that the man of her dreams painted for her! Just an add on! The place warrants that you can buy a kilo of potatoes at Rs16 BUT...!! Kaafi bada but!!! (no pun here re!!!) She wanted just 1 aalu!!! Karna kya tha! They conveniently saunter accross a crate full of potatoes and she she picks through them till she finds one that fits her palm perfectly and can sit there till it gets shoved down a shocked roomie's jacket pocket!!!!! :-D All this after a Business Law lecture that said "anyone who accompanies in a crime is equally liable to the punishment!!" :-DD

That was that!! It ended with buying a few gifts and some yummy aaloo tikki n paani puri!!!! :)))))))))) B-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l Dayyy!!!!

Pensive...

There's a lot of thoughts playing in her head... She's not feelin all that great on the insides.... She's feeling rough around the edges.... she's not herself today (she knows that n has been trying to hide it)... she's in need of a hug... she wants to run into those arms and cry.... she wants to sit alone quietly... she's not warm today.... she's just vulnerable today...

And then somehow the world around her figures all that out (though they don't know it) and her day starts wit an sms from an old friend that says 'she has nice eyes'! Now as for her, she's always thought they've been frog eyes!!! :-D Yup that makes her smile!!

Another friend thinks she's lukn great in the new haircut! She sent him pics!! n the man of her dreams thinks she looks gud too!!! :-)

Then her world jus turns into happy bits of laughter as the bakar gang begins with their dose of bakar! The bakar gang being charsi, firangi, yogi mumma, soojan, motuu and aba!!! :-D

At the end of the day.... thrs a lil glow somewhere deeeeeeep inside but she's still kinda in need of a hug and is still kinda vulnerable and she could still cuddle up in her blanket and let the tears roll by... (n if you ask her she doesn't know why..!!)

Meditation!!

This one we all need to try!! It leaves you feeling all tingly wingly and beautifully happy!! Don't ask me how i found it... i jus did somewhere on the net...!

(click on the image for a better read!)

Yup... that's the butterfly and that's the happy smily you after doin it!!!!! Seriously try it...


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yes.. i plan to go for a morning walk!!!! lets all hope i make it!! :-D

Home!!!

It had to start with a bang!!! well.. a lil short of that actually!!

There was a bomb scare on her train!!!
Your reactions: oh God!!!; What'd she do???; Is she okkkkk????; Thank God twas jus a scare!!! and more of the like...
Well... so what did she do?? She quietly cuddled up into her blanket, kept half a ear open for sounds of "Run!!!!" and saved herself from the cold!!! :-D That's her for you!! And as a friend just said, "punjabi kudi haigi! aida hi thodi darr jayegi!!"
Now for the reaction that takes the cake: 'If that couldn't wake you, what do you want?? An atom bomb??!!!!' (Mommy dearest!) and loads of people blowing their top at her n going 'Tu pagal hai!', 'Khayal rakha karo!' etc etc!! (They r all right n she's wrong! She knows that!! But rajaaiiiii.... thandd.... :D)

Mommy dearest pampered her soooo... much that today she looked at the mess food n could only wail, "Mommmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy"!! Shekhar's luck he was standing right there and in her state of home sickness she thought Shekhar was exuding 'Motherly' vibes and looked at him and went on with her antics of 'Mommyyy'!! :-D

The best part was wedding shopping with her buddy from school days!!! She's getting married on Jan 23! The saris, the cosmetics... all that girlie stuff!! It's such fun being a girrrl!!! :-) N then her Godmother luvs to pamper her with all kinds of stuff to eat and says, 'teri hansi sunke meri bigadi hui tabiyat theek ho jaati hai!' She's a darling you know! She even went onto say that lets get stamp paper and i'll exchange you for my daughter wit your mum!!! (So you can imagine how much I get pampered!!)

She had an awsumly long weekend and mommy packed her up wit lots of goodies! Ok ok dnt drool n i'll tell you:

• Gajar ka Halwa
• Dark chocolate Cake
• Gur paare
• Moongfali ki barfi
• Home made chocs!
• Gajar ka achaar
• Methi ki puris!!

Happy drooling till the next post!! :D (Oops, there's Maava Gajak as well! ;-) )

Stuckathon!!!

Stuck again!!!! I guess i've jus given toooooo many exams!! (eggjams!!!!) :-D

Takin a break... goin home... maybe tat'll help to unglue the thoughts from the so called 'grey cells' n put them onto the keyboard!!!!! Maybe...just maybe... (scary maybe!) it won't!!! Save meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Joyful!!!!!

Somedays are just so happy!!!!! n then thrs a song to show exactly how i'm feelin...

PS - it starts slow.. listen to it for a lil more than a minute at least to know what i mean!!!! It's one of the bestest Choir songs I've ever heard... lyrics, the beat, the music and all the color!!!!! 'Joyful Joyful - Sister Act 2':

Reminiscing!

I was just sitting down to fill in the new yearly planner... A lot of thoughts came rushing!!

• The bday of the 'other men!' (Ankur, Yogi, Nish n Shekhu) - somehow I've never been there!! It's always been over the phone!!
• Buddhi's Anniversary - now this is a new event added to my planner!! :-) Yup! 'They' became a couple about a year ago and it's been beautiful watching 'em!! God Bless!!
• Di's b'day - I'm already thinkin of how to get flowers delivered to her!!
• A wedding! - Harsha's wedding!! Due to happen soon and gosh! I'm dying to see her all dressed up as a bride!! She'll look so awwwwwwwwsum!!!!
• A conversion - from Nipun bhai he became Nipun jeeju!! (Yup, an almost sisterly figure married a friend whoz been like an elder bro!!)
• An anniversary - a special one!! Both sisters got married a year apart on the same day!!!!
• Roomie's bday - the last b'day that we'll celebrate together probably!! Iske baad zindagi ki raahen jaane kahan le jaaye hamein....!
• Lots of days with 3-4 events packed into them!! (Wow!! I want more of these!!)
• Mother's day and father's day!! It's just an excuse to make them feel special!! :-)
• The birthday of the fromidable Baba! (who would actually prefer to call it doomsday!!)
• Doctor's Day!! - I better remeber this one!! Mommy's a doc u c!! :-D
• There's a patch when on 5 continuous days there's something!!! :)))))
  
• Ruchi - 2 Ruchi's actually! 1 all of us in hostel love to give b'day bumps to and turn her into a filthy lil creature by pouring all kinds of stuff on her from cake icing to rasna to 'khatti dahi!' N the other I'm still to wish for the first time!! She's got an aura that's definitely angelic! It feels like a special bond already!! (I'm so glad I found both of you!!! Seriously!!!)
• My son's bday - Yup! I adopted a kid here!! :-D chill! It's just an expression!! I'm after his life to give up 'sutta!' n the guy loves to come n talk to me about stuff n things in general!! He says I have a very 'motherly aura!!!!!!!!' Shakal dekh ke duur se shuru ho jayega, 'Paaye lago maa!!'
• The b'day of a new found sister who loves to call me bachcha!!! :-) N the bday of a 'bade bhaiya' who loves to call me 'chhoti'!!

A lot of b'days and anniversaries have been added this year! Each is special, each is beautiful!! It's an amazing experience to fill up your planner and going on filling it to realize that 'Gosh! There's so many people out there who love you and are important to you and more than that, who you are important to!!' What better way to start a whole new year rite?!! :-)

>----------------------------:)----------------------------------< style="text-align: center;">From small beginnings...

To joyous moments... 'If you can dream it, you can do it!' Dream on!!

A toast to Life!!
Wishing you all one of the best year's in you life ever!!