I dunno what to call it!

A piece of linen
A few shards of glass
Petals strewn accross
A pool of clear water!

A ray of light
Eternal darkness maybe
Soft, black and beautiful..
Black nay... purple maybe!!

A sparkle... a glint..
A shine??
A dream... rather a wish...
Hope nay.. a belief forever!

Wings... grey n blue..
The sea.. calling!
The wind... following...
A faith.. oh so true!

- Ani
(don't look at me like this puzzled mass of reflection! I know its a lil too abstract! Jus please... name it for me!) :-)

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A friend jus called it 'Life'! He says only 'life' gives u all that! made me go 'hmmmmmm.....!' for a very long moment!

Ye duniya gazab ki!!

Lots happened! Yeah I look the on your face which sayz 'n now u tell us!!!' (can't stop giggling!)

First up: There's a feeling in her heart that she can't quite place.. its kinda makin her feel nice though!

Refer the last post for mentions of Chris... we've been chattin up with each other and as he says, 'It's the power of music!' My dear darling sister can still not believe it! (I know some of you also don't!!) [and no.. the feeling in her heart has nothing at all to do with this guy! :P]

Ok time to get a wee bit serious... It's eve teasing I wanna discuss here... not just that but all of the crimes that happen against women... Here's some data I found a tripod site for defense of Indian women:

"Offenses against Women in India
- Acid Attacks on women
- Molestation in empty train compartments
- Outraging of Modesty in Offices
- Sexual Harassment
- Eve Teasing in Buses, etc
- Sexual Assaults in Discotheques, Pubs, Public places
- Humiliation of Women
- Stalking & Following
- Alcoholic Offenses (people just don't know what they're doin! These are the worst!)"

I was totally shaken up when I read this:

"In India every 26 minutes, a woman is molested
In India every 34 minutes, a woman is raped.
In India every 42 minutes, an incident of sexual harassment takes place.
In India every 43 minutes, a woman is kidnapped.
In India every 93 minutes, a woman is killed. "

What when a woman stands up for herself? Why does the world stop and point fingers at her and say she's wrong? Goddamit!!! Get a life for once at least!!! (That's all I have to say about this... and I'm proud to be a woman who stood up for myself and slapped the guy nice and proper... he was drunk! An alcoholic offense!) People need to gain some self-respect! Some of the male homo sapiens need to come out of the shadows in which they comfortably decide to dwell (i'd rather hide!)!!

Hmmm... I can see a lot of questions! Relax.. nothin that she couldn't handle! Trust her! (I just wish more women would do what I did.... not that I'm a bond of sorts or anythin but hey... WE ARE BEAUTIFUL!) N yes... I want to thank all the lovely people who've stood by me! Ur all amazing! Seriosuly! (Please don't kick me for the thanx... its sach me from deep down inside and I had to say it.. )

Switching to a lighter note again: Home for the weekend and my only reaction is an imitation of Juhi Chawla going, 'Kya family hai!' Food festival as usual... the works! Lemon chicken, pasta n chicken ham and some awwwwsum cutlets! A horrible cherry schnapps! A thumbs up was life savin after that! And a Dad with that latest form of a 'machhar maar' - the elctronic tennis racket shaped insect killer!! The three ladies of the house have collectively christened him, 'Mosquito Man' after he 'daringly' tried to insert his finger into the wires just to see what happens (it obviously sparked and he barely saved his finger from going shaheed)!! Then when she lets him have it ki "kya kar rahe ho!!!!" He gives her one of his cutest looks and says, "achcha bachhu mujhe daant rahi hai!!" :-D yeah I know... role reversal! Par kaam hi aise karte hain!!!

Next up.. she'd forgotten to carry along her pajamas... Dear ol Dad sweetly gets her his pajamas and a kurta as well.. he sez, 'Try it on! It'll fit u well! U'll look nice!' Like she needs to look nice at 2 in the morning!! Eventually when she does decide to go change she smiles at him and says, 'Im going to look nice now' and waves the pajama n kurta! :-D Ma n Di jus can't stop laughing!! (I luv u Papa!)

Meanwhile...there's a kurta that mom can't fit into and she needs to get exchanged!! With my memory for such things I need a reminder service!! Who's volunteering??!!

A walk to remember....!

It was not just another day...

It started with her waking up to a beautiful sunrise and a small excursion to the bamboo jungle (jungle is exaggerating it way beyond the truth but it jus sounds nice here!! :-D) to cut some bamboo! Ya ok, look on and ask WHYYYY???!!!!! Just to nurture a hobby (not mine) of bamboo carvings!

What followed was not nearly as beautiful.... its hard to see friends cry... more so when you can't do anything for them... the emotions that flow can be overwhelming...!

Mom called and called it a small world out there! (ok almost screamed it!!!) Another one of the coincidneces of knowing someone somewhere had happened... This one was related to the Baba!

An evening with 'Purple Flower' and 'Bandish!' The drummer for Bandish, 'Chris', remembered her from when he was with 'Euphoria' and he'd let her play his drums!! (yeah baby... :-) It had happened!!) He just added onto say, 'You used to be thin back then! I remember you... kinda childish then... you've got that grown up look now!' (Yeah yeah yeah.... she used to be the so called, 'patla!' Then regular evenings out with cheese intermingled happened to her and she bloated... she's trying to get back in shape, but hey, 'She's in shape! Round is a shape!!')

A chat with the two Ankur's in her life... one of them better known as Bunny!! And who for want of superhuman powers has now been christened, 'BunnyMan'!! (~giggles!) The other, always always always makes her smile and is furious right now coz he looks at his yahoo messenger and still sees her online beyond 5 in the morning!! (soti hoon soti hoon... shaam k pehle nahi uthoongi!!)

The song on her pod right now:

Main aur meri roomie... with a sprinkling of Baba!!

Ever heard of something called a 'double murrabba'? Bas aaj kuch aisa hi hua...

The conversation for ur reference: (try the video at your own risk!)

Baba: try this then... nice video.... very nice....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2F_hGwD26g

Me: meri roomie trauma me chali gayi hai

Baba: nice...

Me: u jus cost me 50 bucks!!!!

Baba: how ?

Me: aapke us video ne meri roomie ko aise trauma me daala ki uski neend udd gayi aur bhook lagi... 1 coke, 1 juice, 2 lays n a hide n seek

Baba: oh.... in that case....i love the compliment... ',;o)

Me: grrr...!!! laughing roomie n grring hidimbaa!!!!

Baba: yeah baby

Me: duffer!

Baba: hahaha

Me: meri roomie mujhe "khoon pita hua" imagine kar rahi hai !!!!!!!!!

Baba: "The universe is hostile
So impersonal
Devour to survive
So it is, so it's always been ...
We all feed on tragedy
It's like blood to a vampire"......ironical that i was jst reading through these lyrics...

Me: hmmm... mhmmm.....
n my roomie sez..nice lyrics!!!!

Baba: waise aapki roomie ki imagination mein aap blood bank se le ke pyaale mein khoon pi rahi thi kya ?

Me: kuch aisa hi... par blud bank nahi tha... mai kisi ka khoon karke uska khoon pi rahi thi

* The trip to the coke machine: the coke man fills the whole glass... drops half of it to the floor and conveniently replies madam coke khatam ho gayi!!!
* Before disaster struck so bad: a roomie readin the gadgets and things section of the newspaper and wondering why is the 'price on request'??? Hum jaise gareebon ko aisi cheezon ka daam kabhi bhi kaise pata chalega??!! (gareeb hain to uska price jaanke karenge bhi kya is a thought that refuses to strike!!)
* Chips ka packet kholne ki nakaam koshish..packet ab mere haath me... just as the roomie sez my hands are achin from tryin, voila, with one easy flip the packet is open! (yeah baby - yours truly!)

Enter stage left: Ms Khanna. Haath me ek khaali dabba. aur roomie ki instantaneous chaahat ki vo kaatil Rs 15 ke hide n seek packet me se bache kuche biscuit Ms Khanna hi khaaye! Unka response, 'maine brush kar liya hai!' Mann hi mann mera response, 'main raat me kab brush karungi??!!'

* Biscuits se yaad aaya... roomie ke daant me dard aur dawai ki jagah hide n seek khaya ja raha hai! Dawai jab di jaati hai to imagination full throttle par: Dawaiyon pe paintings kyon nahi banaate?? Additions from urs truly, Vab Gogh and cough ki goli, paracetamol pe Picasso, Pain killer pe Michaelangelo!!! (Maaro maaro!!!)

Exit in panic stage left Ms Khanna: 'Look at urself ajeeb logon!' Roomie ki dard bhari pukaar, 'log hamare kamre se bhaag jaate hain!! subak subak! '

Yours truly: banging head (very very slowmo - fodna thode hi hai bhai!) on the wall and look at the heavens to offer some respite... !!! Bachalo bachalo....!

Holy Abstraction!

Darkness above and beyond; the breeze in her face; her hair flying...

The vision in her eyes: a winding road... meandering ( I could have said serpentine but I kinda like meandering!) ; an orange sky with streaks of blue... green around her... the flat kinds though...

The feeling in her heart: well.. she doesn't really know but she can meditate... (again! :) ). Is that what they call peace? She thinks so... its quiet in her head...

Her state of mind: Quiesence! Sounds still perturb her but its a distraction she can do with..!

Her faith: Oscillating as usual! Kinda elevating as well...!

Her thoughts: abstract enough to elicit a smile and write this post!!

(The look on your face: brings a smile to hers!)

I'm a 100 today!

And that ladies and gentlemen was my 100th post! :-)

(Found myself with that one i guess!)

A day like today...!

1 lecture today! Even there the prof kept tryin to show us a video n the three missketeers were still chattin away, clearing the remains of their trip with the final hisaab etc.! And yup.. planning for the 'Big Day' in Ms Khanna's life!! One of my best lectures ever!! :-D

Next up: Eklavya! An amazing movie... the way the camera captures the myriad emotions of the movie is totally totally amazing! N Saif is lookin like every woman's vision of a Greek God!! Totally sexxxxxyyy!!!!

Dinner: Apna pyara 'Rajasthan' (the closeby dhaba)! Single anda curry and fulke! (the fulkas are awwwwsum!!) :-) Poor Pramil! (a classmate... a hungry classmate!!!:-D) The aalu paratha that he ordered made him stare at every passing by plate in sheer hunger and when a plate holding his finally comes he discovers its burnt! Befor he can say, 'kha lunga' the guy disappears back in with it to make another one! (Mommy sez u get money if u eat jala hua rotis or parathas!!). Well... after the wait of a lifetime it arrived again but it so happened that Mr Pramil had shifted to another table! Not seeing him where he was 'supposed' to be, the paratha was taken back inside promptly enuff and well.. did not arrive!!!! :-D Goes without saying we were all in stitches with laughter! Stomach cramping and jaws aching kinda laughter!!The look on his face was priceless!! (LOL!!)

Later: Another movie!! I'm on a roll! Cars! I finally finally saw it!! Yeah yeah! Make that face!! But how can I help it if first I can't access it, then the whole world seems to have deleted it! Then the guy who downloads it sends it to the wrong person and it stands long forgotten. Then Barrwala sends it to me in a format that doesn't work on any damn player!! Finally finally finally, it works!! And its an amazing movie! I especially love the closing song... it kinda like speaks to you...

Here: The closing song! Brad Paisley's 'Find yourself!' :-)

The Three Miss-keteers!!

A lot of songs...

'There she goes... there she goes again...'
'Chhod aaye hum... vo galiyan...'
'Hum teeno jaisa hai kaun yaha....rangeen kiya hai hum hi ne ye sama..!'

Jus decided to pack our bags and run away to Mt Abu. Who all?? 3 girls!! Manvika, Neetika and yours truly!! :-))

Early early in the morn... Train ticket status - 100 something waiting! :-D Fir bhi jaana to hamein train se hi tha.. budgeting ka savaal tha!! Well... after alarm clocks going haywire and Ms Khanna thinking they'r not even going they did manage to make it to the station not just on time but with time enough to buy a General ka ticket (:-D don't kill me!) and have breakfast!! (yup at the stinky counters of the station!) [Now they dint plan on tellin everyone... so technically we were all off to my place and there's this bachcha who we met downstairs at the hostel who's like baroda jaane ki kya tension.. koi bhi bus le lena! Her reaction ummhmm!! yaaaa.... :DD]

Inki gundagardi shuru ho chuki by taking full control of the charging plug for a good half hour! :-D The best reaction was, 'Ya ok.. go ahead u guys! Tum teeno ko to koi kya hi karega!!' :-D (Some of those who knew they were doin this were really really worried and yup.. my most regular commenter happened to be one of them!!) :D

Well.. that was that! Train aayi, ye train me ghuse aur bakaitii se baith gaye! (Nopes not in gen.. in sleeper! :-D) So then this weird person who calls himself an 'Escort' comes in and checks our tickest and insists on fining us coz we had a gen ticket n stuff! Then hamari Bondi (female bond for all you government ki tubelights!) goes and pataos the TT and after a lot of please please mixed with some serious hadkaana from the Bondi the TT and the so called 'Escort' jus take the extra amount (to convert the ticket from gen to sl) and are on their way!! (loads o giggles and a very victorious triumph!)

Well.. after having gone through that kich-kich (which in a way was fun!) they were wiser and got in line to buy tickets for the return journey.. (line hamse hi shuru hui.. :DDD). 254, 255 and 256! You guessed it... Wait listed on those numbers!! (aage kya hua filhaal k liye suspense... read on!)

Then began the swirl through the hills... It was b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l!! Swirling and twirling through the hills with langurs comin from e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e! The scenery - 'Take my breath away' variety! All shades of green and brown at once in one quick glimpse and then it suddenly changes to rocks and landslid-like view and then back again!!

Three hungry females!! They were ready to devour Abu right then and right there!! :-D Well.... they found themselves food before they found themsleves a roof! After satifying their stomachs they launced on a trek for a roof on their heads in under 600 bucks! Mahaan hain ye!! They started with a Hertiage hotel on of course the insistence of their Bondi!! :-DD And quickly ran out of there to Mamta Mandir!! (Waise to Palace tha uska naam... par itni seedhiyan thi ki hum log sirf aur sirf 'Jai Mata Di' hi bol paaye!) Then the Bondi decided they can trek some more and about 5 hotels and loads of slopes later we pack ourselves into 'Ranjana Palace'; a place with an awwsum king sized bed, a very clean loo with hot water and a nice ambience and bang on budget!!!!!! :)))))))

That was that.. Next stop - Nakki lake! They say a guy dug out a lot of dirt with his fingernails to make the lake and hence the name! (Naakhun - Nakki!) The stop was of course interspersed with choc softies and some earring shopping! (Amaazing chaandi ki earrings!) A paddle boat where Princess Neetika sits in the center and doesn't have to paddle and her 'Daasis' take her around the sights of the lake with beautiful rockas and birds everywhere!! ;-)

Ab sunset bhi to dekhna tha.. finished the boat ride and ran..literally to the sunset point!! So many slopes again! Mann me sirf ek hi baat, 'chhota kadam, neeche dekh aur zor se bolo Jai Mata Di!' :-D The hordes of people that we saw there made us realize that it wasn't off-season but instead 'mating season!' The amount of couples all around was mind boggling!! :-D All hugging, kissing and serious PDA everywhere!!! And the three of em singing, 'tera mera pyar amar' behind each one of em!! (uncontrollably giggling!) A beautiful sunset and lods of photographs later we scour the market... And yes.. 'we shop!' :-D (I so love the look on your faces!!!) then of course hunger strikes and food gets packed for want of some Beer as well! (Jannat!)

Thak k choor, bhooke and totally glowing and smiling, the three Miss-keteers attacked at the booze and the food (awwsum Pizza for the bondi and tandoori chicken for us) Yummmmyyyy!!! :)) Nopes... drunk was not her!! (Arre serious!) After all, Nity's enagenment date had come out and she was the one squeamish in the belly!! ;-)

Lots of 'meeps' here... loads of girl talk that shall not be revealed in this space! ;-)

They slept like logs and awoke next morning and like good children revelled in the warm water and then went to the Gurudwara! It's always a nice feelin!! :)) Then the hungry shernis attacked breakfast! (bahut hi problem thi - kha peeke paise dekhenge aur fir tote udd jayenge bill dekh k!!) :D :P Breakfast is incomplete without coffee rite?! So CCD it was! A Mocha latte and a vegan shake later the three women had reached their point of Jannat and were blissfully elevated! Absolute lazybum Nirvana had been attained! So they grudgingly trekked back, got their stuff and found a jeep to take em to the station! 4 gujju guys were company (what after Miss Khanna's wish of 3 handsome guys - we ended up with 4 'duh!Bachaaaaoooo!' kinda gujju guys who insisted on goin yak yak yakkity yak continuously!!) The ride downhill was spinning! Totally!!! And the yaks were no help!! The coffee had converted to some deathly burps and the 'Shauchalaya' at the station was mercifullly clean and came to all our rescues!! :-D The gujju guys meanwhile were trying to chat us up.. especially one in a red shirt, a pittance for a frence beard and black framed chashma with a lisp in his pronunciation!!! Turns out all four of em were married!! Thank God for small mercies!!! They got completly pukish in between and Mr Red shirt asks em, 'Are You Vomit??' (He was tryin to be sweet and helpful... but wen ur pukish ans someone asks you 'Are you Vomit' then HOW DO YOU REACT???!!!!)

Well... Ms Khanna met a friend from engineering who had just got married and was honeymooning with his wife!! Try as she may, his name evaded her!! (It feels so nice to know that i'm not the only person on this planet who this happens to!!) :-D Well what now u'd think?? Langoor attack!! There were sitting in a line over their heads and were barely saved from them dropping their daily ablutions on our heads!! (yes yes saved!! gosh!!)

Ok time to break the suspense... the 254, 255 and 256 waiting tickets happend to be mentioned on the chart as confirmed in S10 on seats 44, 57 and 58!! How totally amazing is that!!! As a very dear friend once said, 'miracles Happen!' :)) U bet they do!!

An aunty in blue, a dehatin in green, her daughter in orange, the latest issue of cosmo, a thumbs up and cameras working to the hilt were our company! We made it back to Ahmd in once piece and totally enjoyed out! Thrilled! Joyous! peaceful! Happy! r-e-j-u-v-e-n-a-t-e-d!!!!!!!!!!!!

The road to the Insti gave our stomachs a severe churn!! She had never seen so many potholes!!! It was like a lifetime of them!!! :D Fir kya tha.. aate saath wardy ke darshan and peshi! (Permission to li nahi thi... to bahaane maare... hanse muskuraye.. roni shakal banayi aur khisak liye vahan se!!) :-D Yeah baby..the Bondi is definitly amazing!!

No, it doesn't end here!! hunger struck the miss-keteers decide to give a grand finale to their trip and gorge on a sizzler each and the most amazing chocolate pastries!!! (Yeah yeah - 1 each!!) :)))) She calls em both fairy Godma and guardian angel and both were duly gifted their magic wands of two flowers each!! :)) The smiles on their faces said it all to her!! >--------:)---------<

And there.... They're back!! (And she HAS lost weight so all of you better agree with that one!!!)

:-D

The Blog Mishap!!!

Well.. looks like the people at blogger thought I was spamming my own blog so I couldn't access it for sometime!! Grrrr....!!!!

Some excerpts:
'Dear Blogger user,

This is a message from the Blogger Team. In order to maintain a free, high quality service, we use an automated classifier to identify spam blogs. [1]

This system has detected that your blog has characteristics that resemble spam. Since you're an actual person reading this, your blog is probably not a spam blog. Automated spam detection is inherently fuzzy, and we sincerely apologize for this erroneous result.

You won't be able to publish posts to your blog until we review your site and verify that it is not a spam blog.'

And then some...

'Hello,

Your blog has been reviewed, verified, and cleared for regular use so that it will no longer appear as potential spam. If you sign out of Blogger and sign back in again, you should be able to post as normal. Thanks for your patience, and we apologize for any inconvenience this has caused.

Sincerely,
The Blogger Team'

She was wild and angry... n then Murphy's law prevailed!! She felt like posting most just because she couldnt!! I plan to post another lil post today.. lets see if it gets locked again!! Gosh!! 3 posts in a day and they call my ramblings spam!!! Mommmyyyy!!!!

Her state of mind...!

These lyrics say it all...! Cheers to Meredith Brooks!

Im a bitch
Im a lover
Im a child
Im a mother
Im a sinner
Im a saint
I do not feel ashamed
Im your hell
Im you dream
Im nothing in between
You know you wouldnt want it any other way

Just when you think you got me figured out
The seasons already changin
I think its cool you do whatcha do
And dont try to save me

Im a bitch
Im a tease
Im a goddess on my knees
When youre hurt
When you suffer
Im your angel undercover
Ive been numb
Im revived
Cant say Im not alive
You know I wouldnt want it any other way

Purple!

'Dark be thy mane,
Soft be thy steps...
Whispered your dreams...

A mist of white...
A spray, a twirl
The dance of an expression
A sparkle in your eye..'
- Aneesha

Doesn't that talk all about purple...? A blissful in itself, soul searchin kinda peaceful lonliness...! A joy all its own.. a smile, a dance, a touch the stars kinda feelin... a lay under the sky emotion! Straight backed, gorgeous, flowing, brilliant, passionate, dreamy, ethreal...!


And then... (these lines kinda stuck on her...)
"how happy is the blameless vessels lot
the world forgetting by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
each prayer accepted
and each wish resigned..!"
- Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

How totally purple right?! :-) The dance of a lifetime in one beautiful colour...!
(I know I know... I can imagine the insanitified expression on all ur faces!!)

Spoonful of grey!

"She walks in beauty like the night...
of cloudless climes and starry nights...!"

Home is always beautiful ain't it?! It started with a dinner with Dad in the train.. :) He was feelinsoooooo terrible about his being in AC n her being in sleeper but then eventually she prevailed on him and he decided not to exchange places (grudgingly so!). Mom in the morning decided to stand between S5 and AS2. :-D Well then she broke it upon 'em both that she's planning a Konkan trip with frenz after her MBA exams get over! Miracle of Miracles!!! They agreed in one go (she later discovered her sis had already done the ground work for her! :-D) and said it'll be her convocation gift!

Ahh.. the convocation!! (yes that will be one detailed post! :D) Her whole parivaar plans to be there and she plans to look 'resplendent' (its rare I use those words to decribe myself) in a.. (ok thats a surprise!) :-D The crux of it is that they did take her shopping and she tried real hard to like something... but as usual.. she likes the stuff mom has! :) And then as they were going through Mom's pitaara (every Mom has one and its amazing the kind of stuff you find there... it's all priceless!!) when they came accross the Sari she wore for her wedding... it's in mint condition and beautiful as ever! She sed she'd love to wear it on her sangeet/engagement etc..(whenever that happens that is! :D) Mom jus hugged her n said, "I luv the way u wear all of my stuff! It kinda makes it 'forever'!" She hugged her back and gave her one of those 1000 mw smiles!! :)

Between a lot of trips to the market... (yeah the sari n other stuff!) it had to happen that a poor cycle wala decided to come in front of dear ol' Dad's car!! It was so delightful to hear the refrain of, 'Maregaa Saala!' :-D It had been ages since she heard him say it!!!

Well... chill! koi mara vara nahi! :-D She jus got her hair straightened!! Ok ok chill!!! She luvs her curls and that was jus temporary! but it was nice!! She got compliments ranging from WOW! to Beauty Queen!! :-D she laughed and enjoyed her moment (and her coffee at the new CCD in Bhopal!!) She cherishes a reaction that went, 'Holy Bloody Hell' even without seeing em! :)

Time to go back to college... it always comes too soon!!! But she wasn't sad... she was feeling radiant from within... she knows that the world is her stage! She walks straight, feels nice and is smiling.... ! Yes... 'she walks in beauty like the night....!'
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Title borrowed from a book she jus finished reading... jus had to write it down somehwere! :-)

And so it rained... :)

Drizzled actually... n just for 2 mins so that now the rest of the world actually refuses to believe that it rained!! I hold my roomie in testimony!!!! :-D

She's Gods sweetest child.. she knows that. n whenever she's down n out it rains... its like God's washing away all her troubles.. :-) Obvious question: what troubles? what happened? etc etc... Chillax! Her whole world crashed... but now its much better... as someone puts it, 'Resurrected!' :-) It's a new feeling n it'll take getting used to... it's like learning to walk all over again, but she knows she can do it! The best part is she's happy! Its like a crashed laptop that was in desperate need of getting formatted!! :-D (yup..tats every bit the IT engineer speaking!!)

The song plays and replays in her head, "Found what I lost inside... my spirit has been purified!" (Oasis all the way!)

The wave she rode: Blissful happiness --> Tsunami --> Comfortably Numb --> An auto pilot smile --> Dil se smilin! :-) Quite a ride huh?! Yeah I know, I know! She couldn't have made it alone... there's been this whole force of people behind her and with her... they've all been amazing and she can't luv em enough! (She won't say thanx... she doesn't wanna get whacked for thinkin of doing something so devastating!!) She's lucky.. very lucky... its rare to have so many gems in the same treasury!! :-)

She's not saying she won't be sad anymore.. she knows now that even if she does get low she'll be up and about soon! She's actually grown from colt to stallion (the female version of it rather! :P) and she believes she can fly...!

She's goin home to daddy dearest and mommy's dreadin the fact that the two of 'em will be around her together!! :D It's like her turn to feel tsunami hit!! (I know she loves it... I love her a lot too!) Somehow mom's always figure out when you are feeling what right??? I didn't take her calls for a whole day 'coz then there would be this barrage of questions... which I know couldn't be handled at the time... So when next day Mommy dearest calls again, she just asks her, 'Everything's fine sweeheart?' n she smiles n says, 'Yup.. cmin home soon' and they move on to discussing the food Mom's makig for this 'bhooki sherni' and the shopping they'll do together!! :))) (this ones' an earthshaker for dad!!)

She got this bunch of flowers that's sittin on her table n brightening up her world! She looks at 'em each morning n her lil head goes on to sing, 'ur beautiful...' (yup fucking high n all!) Her eyes wander over an empty space on the corner table... she's just removed something from there... She doesn't cry... she peacefully smiles! And then it drizzles....

:-)

Life's Lessons...

Here's something that I live by....

Max Ehrmann's "Desiderata"

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Just a song...

Nice song though!

:-)



The Lyrics :

maula... maula...
mujhko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

rooh ko tu hawa bas tu hi aab hai
is nazar ko to sirf tera hi kwaab hai
mujko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

jogi bana aa aa...

shor kyon kar rahin yahaan har ek zubaan
naam tera ka gumshuda gumshuda
mujko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

jogi bana maula
jogi bana main phirta rava kinna
mujko bata mera ghar hai kahaaan maula
jogi bada main phirta rava kinna

The Alpha Omega.... revisited!

Ohk... a quick reference to some previous posts:

The Alpha Omega
Silently she speaks...
The Rollercoaster
(tats just a way to get you to read more of my blog! :P)

The Omega is wandering.... rambling....
Her solace - the sounds of silence.
Her joys - the wings of pain.
Her dreams - a sparkle in her ever shining eyes.
Her moment - a peaceful yearning of sorts.
Her thoughts - a convoluted ocean.
Her steps - slow but sure...!

Soul food!

What i'm listening to right now?? - "Sajanaji vaari vaari jaunji... - Honeymoon Travels pvt ltd.!" :-D

The contradictions of muzik have been way too many since yesterday!! You'll know what I mean.. read on!

After finishing a Business law exam which was supposed to last for 150 mins in 65 mins flat (entry through the door to leaving the paper on the table!) she decided to have a beautiful day! It had started off on quite a frenzy when she woke up only an hour before the exam and still had an Act or two to study!! :-D Well, nothing doing! She chucked that, quickly turned pages while in between sending out wake up calls to her blissfully asleep roomie! Missing breakfast before an exam is a crime for which she'd rather not be punished - so she chucked the notes, brushed and ran down for fooooood!! (No wonder her mom calls her the bhooki sherni!!)

That was that... after 55 mins she checked through her question paper again.. figured she'd done the requisite 5 questions and then just as she was about to leave the Prof who teaches the subject walked in... Ummmm! aaaa...!!!!! She sat down again... for want of something better to do she underlined her paper!!! (Imagine that!!!) That's how it took 65 mins!! Kodak moment - the expression of the class when she got up with a flourish, answer sheet in hand..! Kodak moment 2 (as narrated by roomie) - Anant's expression when she got up a mere 5 seconds after me!!

Well... the two of em had planned an afternoon out anyways... So off they went! She got treated to a wonderful meal at Cafe Upper Crust (u have to eat it to believe it!!) which started with a yummy dark chocolate truffle! :-D Then they gallavanted around town... bought some necessities, checked out ipod accessories, dawdled around in Crossword and basically had an Awwwwwsum time! The minute they're back on campus the Baba informs her, "20 mins n be down hidimbaa!" (yup..that's what he calls her! Motee is another name but uski rights are shared! This one is exclusive!) So be it she happily said...! Where were they going? Campus Rock Idols re!! Awwwwwsum! Amazing!! Sexxxxyyyy!!! Exhilirating!! Life Giving!!! and of course, "Rocking!!" (duh!)

She's lost her heart to Indus Valley! "Morbid genesis" proved to be morbidly morbid with the vocalist singing in the most authentic of Bhopali accents!! (amma miya kya kar riye ho?? aa riye ho ki jaa riye ho?!!) :P Neflheim was brilliant - she's fallen in love with their drummer! It was basically amazing stuff!!

As always happens with this kind of 'rocking' muzik... Stomachs were rumbling and they wanted foood! Foood happened to be scrumptious again (twice in the same day!!!) and it ended up makin her miss dad n mom!! It didn't end there... after a drive back in the cold Ahmedabad air, they stopped to have 'ek cutting' at the nearby dhaba! What a shot of nice hot tea can do for a semi frozen soul!! :-D

They were back.. to the sounds of classic hindi muzik blaring from the dance party in the college grounds!! From rock to 'aika dajiba!' It was an amazing evening! And then to top it all she laid her hands on a bubble warp which she was gleefully 'put-putaoing!' Jelaous, wanting eyes were eyesing her bubble wrap but she held the soul privilege of going 'put put put' with it!! :-D An awwwwsum day!!

She decided to snuggle up in bed and doze off soon after and the day ahead today entails self pampering! :-) A woman needs it every now and then! And it's more now than then today!! :))

Looming large - A submission for Management Consulting! She will get around to doing it!! (eventually.....!) :-D

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But she missed them... tthe other men in her life!! She knows they would have loved this muziked evening!! She missed the lovely moments of joy and laughter they created at the Bryan Adams show they went to last year! She missed them playing at local colleges in Bhopal! She missed being their Band Manager... she had tears in her eyes for a few moments.... She luvs em all sooooooo..... much!

Sparkle in her eyes!

She's feeling like this new person... renewed.. happy.. joyful.. and most of all there's this unshakeable belief inside of her now! She's ready to take on the world... She knows she can... :-)

Imagine this:
"A vast expanse of blue.. below and above... skies and seas...

the soft glimmer of happy sunshine... a rock... and a flower (a shivering pink lil thing) coming out from its recesses... a spray of the sea... droplets... golden ones! A smile and a dance with the wind!"

That's what's inside her right now and knows that it'll only get better! (I know ur thinkin how can it get better than this.. even she doesn't know... all she knows is 'Life is b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l!' and that's way it should always be!)