The Blog Mishap!!!

Well.. looks like the people at blogger thought I was spamming my own blog so I couldn't access it for sometime!! Grrrr....!!!!

Some excerpts:
'Dear Blogger user,

This is a message from the Blogger Team. In order to maintain a free, high quality service, we use an automated classifier to identify spam blogs. [1]

This system has detected that your blog has characteristics that resemble spam. Since you're an actual person reading this, your blog is probably not a spam blog. Automated spam detection is inherently fuzzy, and we sincerely apologize for this erroneous result.

You won't be able to publish posts to your blog until we review your site and verify that it is not a spam blog.'

And then some...

'Hello,

Your blog has been reviewed, verified, and cleared for regular use so that it will no longer appear as potential spam. If you sign out of Blogger and sign back in again, you should be able to post as normal. Thanks for your patience, and we apologize for any inconvenience this has caused.

Sincerely,
The Blogger Team'

She was wild and angry... n then Murphy's law prevailed!! She felt like posting most just because she couldnt!! I plan to post another lil post today.. lets see if it gets locked again!! Gosh!! 3 posts in a day and they call my ramblings spam!!! Mommmyyyy!!!!

Her state of mind...!

These lyrics say it all...! Cheers to Meredith Brooks!

Im a bitch
Im a lover
Im a child
Im a mother
Im a sinner
Im a saint
I do not feel ashamed
Im your hell
Im you dream
Im nothing in between
You know you wouldnt want it any other way

Just when you think you got me figured out
The seasons already changin
I think its cool you do whatcha do
And dont try to save me

Im a bitch
Im a tease
Im a goddess on my knees
When youre hurt
When you suffer
Im your angel undercover
Ive been numb
Im revived
Cant say Im not alive
You know I wouldnt want it any other way

Purple!

'Dark be thy mane,
Soft be thy steps...
Whispered your dreams...

A mist of white...
A spray, a twirl
The dance of an expression
A sparkle in your eye..'
- Aneesha

Doesn't that talk all about purple...? A blissful in itself, soul searchin kinda peaceful lonliness...! A joy all its own.. a smile, a dance, a touch the stars kinda feelin... a lay under the sky emotion! Straight backed, gorgeous, flowing, brilliant, passionate, dreamy, ethreal...!


And then... (these lines kinda stuck on her...)
"how happy is the blameless vessels lot
the world forgetting by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
each prayer accepted
and each wish resigned..!"
- Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

How totally purple right?! :-) The dance of a lifetime in one beautiful colour...!
(I know I know... I can imagine the insanitified expression on all ur faces!!)

Spoonful of grey!

"She walks in beauty like the night...
of cloudless climes and starry nights...!"

Home is always beautiful ain't it?! It started with a dinner with Dad in the train.. :) He was feelinsoooooo terrible about his being in AC n her being in sleeper but then eventually she prevailed on him and he decided not to exchange places (grudgingly so!). Mom in the morning decided to stand between S5 and AS2. :-D Well then she broke it upon 'em both that she's planning a Konkan trip with frenz after her MBA exams get over! Miracle of Miracles!!! They agreed in one go (she later discovered her sis had already done the ground work for her! :-D) and said it'll be her convocation gift!

Ahh.. the convocation!! (yes that will be one detailed post! :D) Her whole parivaar plans to be there and she plans to look 'resplendent' (its rare I use those words to decribe myself) in a.. (ok thats a surprise!) :-D The crux of it is that they did take her shopping and she tried real hard to like something... but as usual.. she likes the stuff mom has! :) And then as they were going through Mom's pitaara (every Mom has one and its amazing the kind of stuff you find there... it's all priceless!!) when they came accross the Sari she wore for her wedding... it's in mint condition and beautiful as ever! She sed she'd love to wear it on her sangeet/engagement etc..(whenever that happens that is! :D) Mom jus hugged her n said, "I luv the way u wear all of my stuff! It kinda makes it 'forever'!" She hugged her back and gave her one of those 1000 mw smiles!! :)

Between a lot of trips to the market... (yeah the sari n other stuff!) it had to happen that a poor cycle wala decided to come in front of dear ol' Dad's car!! It was so delightful to hear the refrain of, 'Maregaa Saala!' :-D It had been ages since she heard him say it!!!

Well... chill! koi mara vara nahi! :-D She jus got her hair straightened!! Ok ok chill!!! She luvs her curls and that was jus temporary! but it was nice!! She got compliments ranging from WOW! to Beauty Queen!! :-D she laughed and enjoyed her moment (and her coffee at the new CCD in Bhopal!!) She cherishes a reaction that went, 'Holy Bloody Hell' even without seeing em! :)

Time to go back to college... it always comes too soon!!! But she wasn't sad... she was feeling radiant from within... she knows that the world is her stage! She walks straight, feels nice and is smiling.... ! Yes... 'she walks in beauty like the night....!'
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Title borrowed from a book she jus finished reading... jus had to write it down somehwere! :-)

And so it rained... :)

Drizzled actually... n just for 2 mins so that now the rest of the world actually refuses to believe that it rained!! I hold my roomie in testimony!!!! :-D

She's Gods sweetest child.. she knows that. n whenever she's down n out it rains... its like God's washing away all her troubles.. :-) Obvious question: what troubles? what happened? etc etc... Chillax! Her whole world crashed... but now its much better... as someone puts it, 'Resurrected!' :-) It's a new feeling n it'll take getting used to... it's like learning to walk all over again, but she knows she can do it! The best part is she's happy! Its like a crashed laptop that was in desperate need of getting formatted!! :-D (yup..tats every bit the IT engineer speaking!!)

The song plays and replays in her head, "Found what I lost inside... my spirit has been purified!" (Oasis all the way!)

The wave she rode: Blissful happiness --> Tsunami --> Comfortably Numb --> An auto pilot smile --> Dil se smilin! :-) Quite a ride huh?! Yeah I know, I know! She couldn't have made it alone... there's been this whole force of people behind her and with her... they've all been amazing and she can't luv em enough! (She won't say thanx... she doesn't wanna get whacked for thinkin of doing something so devastating!!) She's lucky.. very lucky... its rare to have so many gems in the same treasury!! :-)

She's not saying she won't be sad anymore.. she knows now that even if she does get low she'll be up and about soon! She's actually grown from colt to stallion (the female version of it rather! :P) and she believes she can fly...!

She's goin home to daddy dearest and mommy's dreadin the fact that the two of 'em will be around her together!! :D It's like her turn to feel tsunami hit!! (I know she loves it... I love her a lot too!) Somehow mom's always figure out when you are feeling what right??? I didn't take her calls for a whole day 'coz then there would be this barrage of questions... which I know couldn't be handled at the time... So when next day Mommy dearest calls again, she just asks her, 'Everything's fine sweeheart?' n she smiles n says, 'Yup.. cmin home soon' and they move on to discussing the food Mom's makig for this 'bhooki sherni' and the shopping they'll do together!! :))) (this ones' an earthshaker for dad!!)

She got this bunch of flowers that's sittin on her table n brightening up her world! She looks at 'em each morning n her lil head goes on to sing, 'ur beautiful...' (yup fucking high n all!) Her eyes wander over an empty space on the corner table... she's just removed something from there... She doesn't cry... she peacefully smiles! And then it drizzles....

:-)

Life's Lessons...

Here's something that I live by....

Max Ehrmann's "Desiderata"

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Just a song...

Nice song though!

:-)



The Lyrics :

maula... maula...
mujhko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

rooh ko tu hawa bas tu hi aab hai
is nazar ko to sirf tera hi kwaab hai
mujko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

jogi bana aa aa...

shor kyon kar rahin yahaan har ek zubaan
naam tera ka gumshuda gumshuda
mujko bata mera dar hai kahaan maula
jogi bana main phirda rava kinna

jogi bana maula
jogi bana main phirta rava kinna
mujko bata mera ghar hai kahaaan maula
jogi bada main phirta rava kinna

The Alpha Omega.... revisited!

Ohk... a quick reference to some previous posts:

The Alpha Omega
Silently she speaks...
The Rollercoaster
(tats just a way to get you to read more of my blog! :P)

The Omega is wandering.... rambling....
Her solace - the sounds of silence.
Her joys - the wings of pain.
Her dreams - a sparkle in her ever shining eyes.
Her moment - a peaceful yearning of sorts.
Her thoughts - a convoluted ocean.
Her steps - slow but sure...!

Soul food!

What i'm listening to right now?? - "Sajanaji vaari vaari jaunji... - Honeymoon Travels pvt ltd.!" :-D

The contradictions of muzik have been way too many since yesterday!! You'll know what I mean.. read on!

After finishing a Business law exam which was supposed to last for 150 mins in 65 mins flat (entry through the door to leaving the paper on the table!) she decided to have a beautiful day! It had started off on quite a frenzy when she woke up only an hour before the exam and still had an Act or two to study!! :-D Well, nothing doing! She chucked that, quickly turned pages while in between sending out wake up calls to her blissfully asleep roomie! Missing breakfast before an exam is a crime for which she'd rather not be punished - so she chucked the notes, brushed and ran down for fooooood!! (No wonder her mom calls her the bhooki sherni!!)

That was that... after 55 mins she checked through her question paper again.. figured she'd done the requisite 5 questions and then just as she was about to leave the Prof who teaches the subject walked in... Ummmm! aaaa...!!!!! She sat down again... for want of something better to do she underlined her paper!!! (Imagine that!!!) That's how it took 65 mins!! Kodak moment - the expression of the class when she got up with a flourish, answer sheet in hand..! Kodak moment 2 (as narrated by roomie) - Anant's expression when she got up a mere 5 seconds after me!!

Well... the two of em had planned an afternoon out anyways... So off they went! She got treated to a wonderful meal at Cafe Upper Crust (u have to eat it to believe it!!) which started with a yummy dark chocolate truffle! :-D Then they gallavanted around town... bought some necessities, checked out ipod accessories, dawdled around in Crossword and basically had an Awwwwwsum time! The minute they're back on campus the Baba informs her, "20 mins n be down hidimbaa!" (yup..that's what he calls her! Motee is another name but uski rights are shared! This one is exclusive!) So be it she happily said...! Where were they going? Campus Rock Idols re!! Awwwwwsum! Amazing!! Sexxxxyyyy!!! Exhilirating!! Life Giving!!! and of course, "Rocking!!" (duh!)

She's lost her heart to Indus Valley! "Morbid genesis" proved to be morbidly morbid with the vocalist singing in the most authentic of Bhopali accents!! (amma miya kya kar riye ho?? aa riye ho ki jaa riye ho?!!) :P Neflheim was brilliant - she's fallen in love with their drummer! It was basically amazing stuff!!

As always happens with this kind of 'rocking' muzik... Stomachs were rumbling and they wanted foood! Foood happened to be scrumptious again (twice in the same day!!!) and it ended up makin her miss dad n mom!! It didn't end there... after a drive back in the cold Ahmedabad air, they stopped to have 'ek cutting' at the nearby dhaba! What a shot of nice hot tea can do for a semi frozen soul!! :-D

They were back.. to the sounds of classic hindi muzik blaring from the dance party in the college grounds!! From rock to 'aika dajiba!' It was an amazing evening! And then to top it all she laid her hands on a bubble warp which she was gleefully 'put-putaoing!' Jelaous, wanting eyes were eyesing her bubble wrap but she held the soul privilege of going 'put put put' with it!! :-D An awwwwsum day!!

She decided to snuggle up in bed and doze off soon after and the day ahead today entails self pampering! :-) A woman needs it every now and then! And it's more now than then today!! :))

Looming large - A submission for Management Consulting! She will get around to doing it!! (eventually.....!) :-D

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But she missed them... tthe other men in her life!! She knows they would have loved this muziked evening!! She missed the lovely moments of joy and laughter they created at the Bryan Adams show they went to last year! She missed them playing at local colleges in Bhopal! She missed being their Band Manager... she had tears in her eyes for a few moments.... She luvs em all sooooooo..... much!

Sparkle in her eyes!

She's feeling like this new person... renewed.. happy.. joyful.. and most of all there's this unshakeable belief inside of her now! She's ready to take on the world... She knows she can... :-)

Imagine this:
"A vast expanse of blue.. below and above... skies and seas...

the soft glimmer of happy sunshine... a rock... and a flower (a shivering pink lil thing) coming out from its recesses... a spray of the sea... droplets... golden ones! A smile and a dance with the wind!"

That's what's inside her right now and knows that it'll only get better! (I know ur thinkin how can it get better than this.. even she doesn't know... all she knows is 'Life is b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l!' and that's way it should always be!)