Saturday, April 15, 2006

change?!

Here's a thought...

"Sometimes one of the hardest things of all is seeing things as they really are. Could have beens, should have beens, ought to bes, can't believe it isn'ts -- all these cloud our vision of the world around us. But seeing through these various illusions is the first step toward accepting things as they are. It could also be the most difficult. And why is it important to accept things as they are? Only then can you engage with the real world, which is the only way to really make any necessary changes."

(credit: astrology.com)

Juggling!

Sometimes in life you just end up juggling so much that ultimately u want some of it to go out of the loop… u wish it would just fall and roll off without disturbing the other stuff in the looop… but thats not wat happens does it?

If something does fall out of the loop of its own accord or 'coz you force it to then the show stops… maybe for the slightest li'l moment.. but then, it does stop! And that stop can sometimes be more dangerous than switching of a life support system for a mere 30secs. All the balance that you tried so hard to achieve goes kaput in some measly seconds…

Where do you restart? Which piece do you pick up and set rolling in the air again? How long before u gain momentum?? How long before it goes back to the start?

Well... I guess these are the questions life answers somewhere along the way....

(yes coldplay – Nobody sed it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard! I’m going back to the start!!)

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

kaam!!

2 days of work!!! good stuff... already feels like 'yaar kitna seekh liya and kitna kitna kitna kuch hai seekhne ko!!!'

The big boss wants to meet me tomorrow... so I'm a li'l jittery...
The immediate boss is happy with my work!!! :-)
(hooray! party!!!!)

Mumbai nagariya - bhai dog bite hua tha jo yahan training li!!! (someone special would say "koi na dog bite madam, aapko pyar hua hai!")

Antop Hill se 341 --> Saki Naka se 307 ya 334 ya 347!! Vapas aate waqt stilll trying to explore. Powaii is close by... and is a huge temptation! (for the obvious reason that its so close to where the love of my life stays!!!)

PS - I'm having fun! Its an experience all of its own! :-D

Saturday, April 08, 2006

inside the heart...

Sitting alone... the light of a few lamps... (a few outside, a few million inside)...

thoughts - a li'l more sane today
want - of someone to understand my reasons...
wish - for 'him' to never know them...
tears - a few... (can't tell you why!)
smiles - many.. for somewhere my heart knows i'm doing the right thing
more smiles - of all my memories
fear - nopes
sadness - a no again
emptiness - the biggest yes wud be small
loneliness - is a state of mind
happy - feeling a warmth but a crazy cold at the same time!!

well... such is life!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

just two lines

a quiet shattering of her chains...
a black robe and a sparkle in her eye...

(thats all i wanted to write today, u all probably know the reason why!)

Saturday, April 01, 2006

"_________"

silently she speaks,
without saying a word...

her heart, the epitome of love!
her thoughts, a raging tempest!

her eyes, soft pools of dew!
her soul, a steely silver!

her gaze, the shining winter sun!
her stare, an impenetrable fire!

silently she speaks,
without saying a word...

The light!!

Ok... here's something my stupid, strat-man and organizational behaviour filled brain just came up with:


All of us have an inner light... this is the light that guides us, lights our path, keeps us warm, happy and aglow! There are moments when the bulb fuses or the tubelight goes black (depends on what you prefer to be!)! :-D

It's in these moments that the Big Guy up there turns on his hi-power bulb and is there with us till an electrician comes and repairs our light! (the electrician of course being a bestest buddy)

Wat say???