mute......

From silence... to despair... to celebration!!! Life indeed is Beautiful!!!

Jailbirds!!

Well...

'my pigeons gone
his flutters no longer by my door
he left at dawn
and as I slept I felt him go
return no more
I will not watch the ocean
my pigeons gone
no earthy ships will ever
bring him home again
my pigeons gone'

That sweet fat thing would saunter accross from my balcony into my room every morning and would get screamed at - 'get out! n lemme sleeeeep!!!' But hey, then it would somehow realize it's been bad n go into this corner, huddle up there, puff it's wings n go gutttttaaarrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! Eventually the 'gutars' would get louder n they would begin to mean, 'yeah yeah! u never lemme in! here I am, I save u from all other pigeons who could shit in ur balcony (it's different that I gleefully do!) and you don't even lemme into your room...!! Dekh lunga!' Then in sheer defiance it fly up into the room and conveniently perch itself on the open door and go, 'yeah baby!' But by then my weapon of war ( a handtowel that's you can perpetually find on the armrest of the chair conveniently placed right next to the door) is already in place and the 'sweet fat thing' is being shooed out...!! Mission acccomplished and it sits in the corner with a hige sulky expression till 'action replay!!!' (this happens a gaziliion times in one day!!)

Question: Where's it gone?? The dark, cold hands of a hostel warden n the frozen gray matter of the 'decision maker' have supposedly 'ensconced' us in the 4 walls by putting a wire mesh all around the balcony!! The balcony that offered a respite from 'their' clutches, the balcony that hailed the sunshine each morning, the balcony that was home to the 'sweet fat thing' and the balcony where a million dreams of flying high in the open skies were dreamt!

Right now: Caged beyond mercy! And the sweet fat thing - homeless and wandering... fluttering hither and tither!! Eventually settled in a lonely corner it found somewhere there...

Digital epiphany:

Dedications galore!!

Ok ppl!! lets do something here....

1. Dedicate a song to ur someone special! (umm.. ok! ok! u dnt hafta name them!!)

2. Now since it's my blog ur readin, dedicate a song to me!!! (haan haan, haathi mere saathi typs bhi chlaega!!!!) :-D

The weekend and then some...

Well... like the previous post makes obvious, Mommy dearest and The Greatest Dad on planet earth were here yesterday!!! (yeah yeah yeah.. i've heard it before! n i know!! for a girl her Dad's like this magic man, superman, awsum person all packaged together n nothin anyone can say or do can do anything to that!!! Always reminds me of the Sunflower ad that went 'My daddy strongest!' :-D)

Well... food as usual n the most amazing chocolate pastry with coffee icecream followed by a sizzling brownie with not vanilla but coffee ice cream and chocolate sauce!! (yeah yeah yeah - eat ur heart out!!!!) :-D again!! N of course, the most amazingly chilllllled cold coffee!!!!

Yours truly was taken shopping then and she had a gala time!! The evening ended with a lot of hugs and Papa so didnt want to go!!!! I'll meet him soon... so that was some solace!! :-)

Foooood at Upper Crust!! (One of the most amazing places for sizzlera and baked dishes in this part of the world!!) Yeah - absolutely completely Baby's day out kinda situation!!!! And then..... close to 10 wild and hungry hostel students break loose on the awwsum christmas cake and gajar ka halwa!!! P.S:-I still manage to save some for the morning!!!! And then Mom calls and a chorus of 'thank-you' resonates through the grounds of IM-NU! Dada this morning find me and thanks me again!! He then does onto add 'long live the Gulati family!!' :-D again again!!!

Now for the then some....
Sat with the book of readings for 'Business to Business Marketing!' and the music that begins to resonate somewhere around is as follows:
'Chhoti si umar me lag gaya rog
kehte hain log...mai mar jaungi!'

followed by - (trust me it gets better!)
'Sheesha ho ya dil ho....
aakhir... toota jaata hai!!'
(imagine the song on a speaker tats crying out loud 'spare me! spare me!'

The icing on the cake:
'humko bhi gham ne maara...
tumko bhi gham ne maara...
hum sabko gham ne maara...
is gham ko maar dalo....!!!!!!!!!!!' **

:-D again again again!!!!

Bas fir kya tha.. 'gham removal spree!' Opened the box of chocolates and gleefully satisfied the tummy and soul cravings and pushed myself back to Padhaaaiiii!!!!!!!!

:-D full n final!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n Merry Christmas again!!!

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** Here's the link for the song: Humko bhi gham ne maara...
The songs been sung by Lata Mangeshkar and Anuradha Paudwal!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas!!

Hey all!

Wish you a verrrrrrrrrrry Merry Christmas!!

My plans for the day: to feast on some home made plum cake and maybe finally hit the books!!!! exams frm day after!! :-D

Cya all!
Have fun!

2 in 1!

1. Calvin n Hobbes Mastercard commercial on YouTube!! It's way too cute!!
Go here: Calvin n Hobbes!
For all my buddies!!!!!

2. Euphoria's 'sone de Maa'
Absolutely brilliant stuff! Stauatory warning: Keep a pack of tissues closeby! It made me cry!!

Euphoria - Sone De...

Here are the lyrics:
'

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

Teri kahani me sachayi jeeti sada

Tu hi bata Maa kya jhootha vo vishwas tha

Bikhra kyn Maa mere sapno ka sansaar tha

Lamha lamha dhokha naya

Tanha tanha mai thak gaya

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

Ho……

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

Sapna jo toota bhi dekho mai roya nahi

Saya jo rootha bhi khud ko Maa khoya nahi

Sadiyan hui tere aanchal me soya nahi

Lamha lamha jeeta jahan

Ladte ladte mai thak gaya

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Ab na jeena….

Sone de Maa ab na jeena

Sone de Maa…….

Sone de Maa ab na.. jeena…

Ho……

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

aey Maa, aey Maa

aey Maa, aey Maa

aey Maa aey Maa aey Maa

aey Maa aey Maa

hmmmm….. mmmm….

Hmmmm…..

aey Maa aey Maa aey Maa

aey……

aey Maa aey Maa

sone de… sone de……..

sone de… sone de……..

sone de… sone de……..

aey Maa..

sone de..aey Maa..

sone de..aey Maa..

sone de….

sone de…aey Maa..

sone de…aey Maa..

sone de…..

sone de, sone de, sone de Maa

ab nai jeena nai jeena nai jeena na

sone de, sone de, sone de Maa

ab nai jeena….

nai jeena..

sone de….

Sone de Maa.. ab na jeena…

Sone de Maa.. ab na jeena… nai jeena…

Sone de Maa.. ab na jeena…

Sone de Maa..

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm'

Love is...!!

Found this today:
This is the traditional Chinese character for love. It's got a heart in the middle, surrounded by 'accept', 'feel' or 'percieve', showing a graceful emotion!!

Makes u go 'hmmmmmm.........!' doesn't it!!

Love this too: The Love Is comic strip!

The other men!!

Right now: Listening to Ankur belt out words of Maaeri while strumming his guitar!! He's awsum with it!! All who've heard it have been like isn't this Palash Sen himself???!!! (not kidding Anks!) Also listening to Buddhi singing 'aayega aane wala!' I love that song.. and more so in his voice!!

The weekend:
'Loose control
I am rebel
Talli hoke girne se samjhi hamne gravity
Ishq ka practical kiya tab aayi clearity
Na koi padhne wala na koi sikhne wala
Naata yeh sannata hai dekho lambu shor hain
Har dil mein bud bud karta h2so4 hain
I am rebel
Loose control'

This actually sums it up!! She walked in to 2 sleeping giants who were rudely woken by the bell and then her continuous chatter!! Eventually the 'Guest of Honor' - hamara firnagi (Ankur jus returned and going back to London!) walks in and there begins a blanket fight to get everyone out of bed!

She just begins to put their fears of 'Shopping' at rest(5 men - shopping!! With one girl who's hell bent on lootoing 'em Linking Road!! Bandra!! That's one of their grossest nightmares right!!) n Yogi Mumma* starts of that Linking road has been one of his slowest 100 m ever!! 30m an hour with his sister!!! :D Well..we're missing the point here... She just said she needs to buy a watch n lo and behold, the firangi says, 'Tujhe ghadi lene ki kya zarurat hai?' She jus begins to explain when she looks at him again and his expression says it all..He's got a ghadi for her!! (And is it awwwwwwwsummmmm!!!!!!!) How he knew she wants one, she'll never know!!!

Next Morning: 6 hungover giants trying to figure out what happened last night!! The loo is their only solace right now.. one by one they make their way and their heads slowly stop feeling woozy!! Jab tak firangi got through with his morning ablutions, his suitcase was ransacked for sum yummy chakli, laddoos and pooris!! :-D In the word of her luv, 'assi aise hi hai si!'

Well, vidaai ka waqt: sab gale mile, thode senti hue... (banta hai yaar... march/april types milega ye fir!!) Kehta fir milenge... apun bola 'yup! online!!' :))

Firangi ke jaane k baad, She decided enough is enough! She has to go on a shopping spree!! So out she goes... then.. Dear big sis, (Pallo) calls and we decide, after a lot of 'u sya na, n no u say na' that we have dinner at Kobe's!! So we go home to a well serviced, shining black Pulsar (Gosh!! in 2700 bucks that thing turned from a Kabadi ka something to neighbour's envy, owner's pride!!) and we fly down on the Highway to kobe's!! Befor that, yogi mumma is looking all set to dazzle in a Suit and is on his way with his killer smile to a friend's wedding!! Yummy sizzlers, topped with a sizzling brownie (scraped to the end with all the burnt chocolate being gleefully eaten!). Time calls... her bus is at 1030!! Charsi says, 'Have no fear, I'm here!!' She chills and takes her seat of glory as the pillion and they zoom through the city on the Western Express highway (at dunno what speed) and make it just in time!! Climax: The bus is late!! :D

Well... (I wanna go baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacccccccckkkkkk!!!!!!!!!)

Note: Yogi Mumma is as you can figure out Yogi bhai! he prefers to refer to himself as 'Mumbai ka Don!' She calls him Mumma coz he's so genuinely concerned about the 2 bachcha's he stays with and also about her when she's in town! He takes care of just about eveything just as Mom's do!!! (Ludviskpnks!!)

Fragments!

"Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control"
-Serenity, Godsmack

"Lighten up while you still can
don't even try to understand
Just find a place to make your stand
and take it easy Lighten up while you still can
don't even try to understand
Just find a place to make your stand
and take it easy"
-Take it Easy, Eagles

"It couldn't be more wrong
Cos there's no one there
Unmistakably lost and without a care"
- Are you there, Anathema

"In the dream of the proud
On the wings of the night
As the daytime is stirring
Where the speechless unite
In a silent accord
Using words you will find are strange
And mesmerised as they light the flame
Feel the new wind of change
On the wings of the night"
- On the turning away, Pink Floyd

I was standing by the edge of the water
I noticed my reflection in the waves
Then I saw you looking back at me
And I knew that for a moment
You were calling out my name
- Take away my pain, Dream Theater

And then there were none!

Just had to write that line somwhere... so there it is in the title!! :-D

Placements dun-duna-dun!! Yours truly landed up better than her dreams could offer so she's way beyond cloud 9 rite now!! The roller coaster ride of emotions - the joys, the smiles, the tears, the relief, the hand holding, the prayers, the support, the love, the care, the concern, the turmoil, the choices and decisions has all come to an end! Trust me - you had to be there to believe it! Once in every lifetime one should go through an MBA placement process!! (Seriously!!)

And then - 22 of the 123 placed MBA's (imagine!!) were on the loose in Diu! The keyword here is 'PLACED!' (wild, reckless and carefree). Unforgettable moments!! The early morning walks, the sunrise, the discovery of a virgin beach with rock cliffs (words demean it), the sheer blue water, the 'gappe' and the bonding... The dry state convicts having a gala time in 'wet wet' land!

(yeah baby! I discovered that on my morning walk!! Thats the sunset!)

An early morning escapade at 6:30 in the morning from the balcony (all other routes of exit were locked) and a long long long walk - me and myself! It's good to be with yourself once in every li'l while and this time it had been long! A reconnect happened and slowly, gradually it all (too long to tell you what all :D) fell into place... and slowly, gradually became perfect again! So she smiles her 1000 megawatt smile again!!

A trip home thereafter - a proud and happy Dad! It was all there in his hug! I luv him sooo... much!!

Now: She's also looking forward to meeting the 'other' men in her life! :-D Her bestest buddies - Ankur, Nishu, Yogi and Shekhu!

A quote: 'Abhi to mutthi bhar zameen aayi hai haath mein... aage poora aasmaan baaki hai!' (Just a hand full of your piece of land has come to you, the whole sky awaits and is calling!)

The lizardventure...

It slithered creepily on the floor over my floaters and behind my writing table... it was creepy and black and kinda fat!!

Scene 1: A screaming Ani, "MINI MINI MINI!!!!" Huddled on the bed... refusing to get off it.. jus huddled and shivering!!!

Stage right, enter 1st Warrior: Mini
Weapon: Umberella
Mini's fragile frame pulled away the study table and the reptile ran down and hid in the innards of the table...

War Zone: Stage left, enter Smriti
(she's also scared of lizards... but trust me i'm worse... u'll see...)
Moment of Bravado happens to Smriti n she says lets push the table out of the room... we empty it and begin to push... An exasperated Mini stops us in our tracks and uses 'the weapon' to drive 'the thing' out from under the table.. Lo and behold it slithers accross to Mini's side of the room... Hunting behind fallen papers when suddenly the scardiest person in the room finds it staring at her in the face from behind a completely different table and jumps from above one table (yes she has managed to venture around the room...) and back on the bed..(there's barely place after emptying the whole table onto it). The fan with it's menacing blades is switched off lest it hurts the Gueirella warriors jumping over the furniture!!

War Zone: Stage Left; enter Pavan. 'Hey cool!! lizard or wat??!!!'
Ani n Smriti: 'Cooooooooooolllllll????????!!!!!!!!!!'

War Zone: 9/11 (thanks to Pavan for the analogy!)
The darned thing slithers accross the sides of the most overflowing cupboard in the whole hostel (Mine!!) and goes inside!!! Hands rush to open the cupboard. Pavan in action.. Hitting with umberella all over clothes and shelves... Volcano erupts and the contents of the cupboard start getting poured out into the room... Mini n Pavan still trying to locate it... Pavan comes accross "cool sticks" (my precious drum sticks) in the cupboard (cb from now on!!) and merrily starts trying to play while conveniently fogetting the 2 scardey cats standing in the corner waiting for the terror attack to come to an end!! (Ani has almost strangled Smriti by then by pullin extremly hard at her shirt!!) Eureka!! Lizard found!! In the deep crevices of the drawer area of godrej cb101!!

War Zone: enter left; Nitika!!
Brave soldier... Weapon: Newspaper!! (and eventually cellotape!!)
Scoops lizard out.. the thing runs hither and thither and out of the cupboard.. the warriors close the cb quickly!! The thing enters the land of no return - the loft!! Hurried measures to seal the cb.. alll sides.. insides... sealed lest it come in from the loft!! (selaed with tape!! brown tape!! tape finito!! hands shaking, shivering voices.. working at top speed to seal the cb). all other sides sealed to prevent another 9/11!! Cb closed!!!!!!

(As is inevitable, this War Zone also witnessed blood curdling, hostel shaking screams by... yup...u got it!!)

War Zone: Night fall
After numerous efforts the thing is still there in the loft!! The door's open and the room is being set right!! Eventually a tired Ani (whose life has just been saved!) retires to bed and posts this blog!! She hopes the night will make 'the thing' go away... and Peace shall reign again within the borders of 306!!

a fuzz......

4 women.... a mall... a very hasseled dad... loads o shopping bags...!!!

mom... a huge suitcase... (warm clothes ++) loads to eat...!!

a sizzler... a yummy baked dish... awsum cold coffee...

warm hugs... loads o laughter...

it's always good to be in the presence of loved ones!!!

Sorry.....

Life can be a great teacher!! There are moments when you go wrong and you don't realize it... then (only if you are lucky) someone will explain to you what you did wrong and why it hurt them...

The first instinct is to defend yourself... but if you just pause for a moment and rethink then you learn something... you grow in that moment when you accept your mistake... it's not so much about apologising you know.. you can say sorry and not mena it, but can you learn and apologize and not mean it?? (i don't think so..)

I learnt that it's okay to admit if you're wrong... things get fine faster!! It's your life.. take the responsibility...

If like me, you have hurt someone... just walk up to them and accept it.. they'll probably not even want you to say sorry 'coz they care about you and are just happy that you realized it...! (And it'll lift a mountain off you!!)

Mini n Me!!

Main aur meri roomie aksar kaafi ajeeb baatein karte hain... :-D

This happened this morning. Please use your abilities for visualising and imagining to the fullest while reading...... (Mini will kill me for this!!)

Mini had said something... (shayad thank you hi tha... ) N koi itni formally thank you kehta hai to mujhe vaise hi bardaasht nahi hota hai... So what ensued is this:

ImAgInE tHiS -
1. Water being poured down on Mini (fairly simple rite??)
2. Mini being spanked with a huge stick... after effects: ow! ow! ow! ow! OW!!!!
3. (This one's the best) Mini being made to sit on the hotplate that occupies pride of place in our room... exactly like Tom Cat makes Jerry Mouse sit on one.. n then after she turns red to the head she jumps of screamin.. 'ow! ow! ow! ow! OW!!!!' (again!) and runs to find a puddle of water in the bathroom (which sadly is not attached!!) and hurriedly jumps in n sits in it with the sound 'chsssssssss.....!' and smoke surrounding her!!! Result - a very harassed Mini... Nose n face brown n black from the steam (umm.. smoke??) and the 'ow! ow! ow! ow! OW!!!!' continues....... :-D


(PS - I luv u Mini. Tu na ho to jaane kya ho... main apni chakar chakar tujhe hi to sunaati hun saari!!!! ur the bestestestestestestestestestest........................... roomie in this whole wide world!!!!)

She painted again!!!

Ah! the joy of expression!! It leaves you so satisfied from the insides!! she was restless... she couldn't say it... she found these 2 pieces of granite in the hostel backyard n since then her hands have been itching to paint!! Just before an exam, she just opens that box of paints.. sits down on the floor bang in the middle of the room and PAINTS!!! Bright happy yellow flowers!! And now... she's smilin and smilin... glittering eyes... a roomie who loved it... and a dash of color to her days... a dance in her step!!

Here's the painting:
Her love of playing with colors also reflects in these rangolis she made on diwali!!

Diamond in the sky!!!

i want to
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touch the stars!!

(listen to this... even u will want to!!) - the cutest twinkle twinkle ever!!

Stars all around!!

She's back n she's back with a bang!! This is how she'a feelin n so tat explains the pic on her orkut n gtalk as well!! :-D

Life is beautiful (cud always be better!! yup she's missing 'him')

She wonderin, she's amazed, she's curious, she's crazy, she's searchin... there's uncertainity in the air, there's kind of certainity too... she's rambling away like her old self...

She's determined!! There's a wild shine in her eyes that she's never seen before and she's not scared of it... rather she's glad! It's put a spring in her step!! She's happy.. (maybe she should get va lil less happy n study for her exams...) Somehow it's not happening... she picks up a book and puts it aside... she's got bigger plans...!! She's thinking something, she's dreaming a dream... She's goona shine.. Star light! Star Bright!!

Non existence!!

She's quiet today... unnaturally...
Her head is spinning... there are all sorts of thoughts surrounding her...
There's a plethora of emotions gurgling somewhere within
She doesn't know why...
Somewhere inside.. she doesn't even want to know!!

She's walking... but there's nothing in sight
She sits and is restless
She writes and theres a gush of words...
She searches.... but doesn't really find...

She breathes... (and wonders how come that's normal?!)
She looks around... even the scenes are unclear...
She hesitates... but then that's not her..
So she walks on... believing...
'this shall also pass!'

Mixed Bag!!

It's been long... been wanting to write.. been wanting to paint... but sumthn sumwhr jus froze wen i decided to do either!! Finally... i write!! (paint hopefully soon!!!!)

I'll start with the Kabootars (bole to pigeons!!) who have decided that they luv to freak me out!!! Every morning at around 7 am (yup they'r actually an alarm clock for me now!!) one or sometimes two of them will fly by into the room... on certain days one of them can even be found sitting on my sleeping motionless body!!! Now, had there been two pigeons I would have understood...but there are 3!! ab batao... hai na extra marital affair!!!!! off late the latest trick is to act asleep if i see them tryin to enter the room!! Seriously!! They'll tip toe to the door and then if I happen to be walking around close by will suddenly stand on one leg and act asleep!!! They are cute... but hey... cut me some slack... every morning.. 7 am!!!!!!!! Mi kisi din seriously uthoongi aur gaana gaati hui paayi jaungi..'Ja ja... ting ting ting ting... Ja ja....... thodi der tu subah mujhe aur sone de na... kabootar ja ja ja... kabootar ja ja ja!! Sajan bhi more soye hai tu bhi ja soja... ja ja!! ting ting ting ting!!'

Tats that!! Kabootar aur mera rishta!! :-D Next up... Dad again!! Went home this weekend... Mommy had warned me that daddy dearest has left all his credit cards with her and has none with him... n won't have wen i'll be there!! N i had this looooooooooo.........ng list!!!! Well.. yes we went shopping, yes he spoilt n pampered me... n yes... he paid Cash!! Now Dad's the kind of person who hates money going out of his hand.... it makes him feel poor!! He's happier swiping credit cards and then wrting cheques to pay em off!! :-D Day 2 with him and he had sumhow from sumwhr managed to dig out sum lost credit card and was all smiles... now tell me what u want!!! :-D Hee hee... He calls me the 'Want machine' anyways!! hoon hi badnaam!! Dad ur the best!!

Suddenly the whole world seems to be going to Paris!! A close friend, Ankur, jus returned from Paris, another one has gone there as an exchanged student and bhai is going there next week for official work!!! (Paris and official work!! Ahem!!) :-D Ab to aisa lagta hai mera honeymoon bhi vahi kahi hoga!! That's Ankur's idea!! The pics sent by him are ultra beautiful and can be viewed here: Paris - By day and by night!

After a whole day of fasting I had a whole day of sleeping!! (Yep, I kept a fast for the man of my dreams!) He's a darling... !! He kept kaughing all day... sumthin inside him was ticklin him that I had kept a fast for him!! :-D (sumhow tat song from k3g kept playin in my head all day - 'bole chudiyan! bachaaaaoooo!!! I'm losing it!!) And my dear roomamte tells me 'tujhe dekh ki lag hi nai raha tera fast tha!' Hee hee!! N jus on that day a classmate comes and tells me, 'yaar meri badi tamanna hai ek baar tere se panja ladane ki!' I refused that day... ab izzat ka savaal that na bhai!!!!

Tats all for now!! Signing off!!

devil or angel??!!

Well it so happens that I met my guardian angel and lil devil today!! The guardian angel, as you would have her, was dressed in a white flowing gown and had gleaming eyes... (umm.. I actually thought the devil should look like that!) and her halo was a lil higher up than I expected it would be (thank God it had one!!) :-D

The li'l devil was wearin this pair of red pajamas n a red t-shirt! It sat gloomily on my shoulder and was kinda peaceful!!! (see what I mean - the other one's supposed to be bored and peaceful!!)

Well, it so happens that instead of Ms Pajama Party sitting on the left shoulder was on the right one and Ms I-believe-I-can-fly was taking full advantage of it's wings and flying on my left side!! (duh!). And as if that wasn't enough, the winged lil thing (I am really not sure that there wasn't a role reversal here somewhere, so I can't get myself to call it guardian angel just yet!) took the poor lil devil by the tail, swung it around and put it where it belongs - on the left shoulder and then continued to smile mysteriously and fly to the right now.

That's about how much I saw of them, except for now, sitting at opposite corners of my screen (and now I'm wondering which is my left and which is my right) and staring into what I'm writing with the lil red thing sighing and the white one well.. u guessed it! Sitting there and kicking playfully at the screen not realizing that even miniscule damage can burn a hole in my pocket!!

Devil or Angel?? U tell me....!!!!

Dad!

(this is my favorite pic! even my big sis has the same t-shirt!!)

There comes this moment in time when you realize that you've been Daddy's lil princess for way too long! It's time for you to graduate and start makin him feel like a king! Start makin him feel that he brought you up right...

He's still your superman and Mr. know-it-all; he always will be. But you make it easier by polishing his magic lamp for him once every lil while.. carrying ur own bags at the station, doing some chores for him (without his having to say it - 'coz by now you jus know!), makin him stay put n changin the flat tyre for him (n the next day he gets em all changed to those nitrogen filled things so that his li'l princess doesn't get her hands dirty!), knowing that he can't come n check on you at night now coz he's had a long day (so you go check on him, switch off the TV while he's fast asleep, and replace the empty bottle of water by his bedside!)....

Dad... I know there are times when you've had to say 'I don't know!' or even 'Princess I can't afford it now!' or 'I'm too old for that now!' and I have seen the tears in your eyes everytime I leave home to come to hostel... but dad (i know i've rarely said it) I love you... n you will always be my superman!! You're the bestest daddy on planet earth!! (((hugs)))!

The Inferno (true and complete rambling!!!)

Here's a recent conversation (now it's for u to guage how fokat I can get!! :-D)

Ref: Dada aka Arindam BARman!! The dude, the womanizer, the langda!!
Aneesha aka Me: The all consuming Inferno (some say in all senses of the word)!!

Here goes full bakar:-

dada: hey

Aneesha: ram ram

dada: bahar barish ho rahi hai

Aneesha: ji

dada: bahut bore hai life

Aneesha: na

dada: sab ko msg kar rah hoon

send me some movie

Aneesha: kyn?

dada: kyun matlab

movie dekhna hai

getting bored

Aneesha: to?

dada: arre yaar

Aneesha: kya?

dada: u gone crazy or wjt

Aneesha: why?

dada: u r even more buggd then i am

Aneesha: no

dada: galti ho gaya aap ko cher diya

Aneesha: i am at peace with the world

dada: maaf karo

Aneesha: my mind n soul n heart have united into a pece giving inferno

dada: arre baap re

Aneesha: the inferno is all consuming and shall not spare even u

dada: mera kya kasoor hai

Aneesha: it shall rid u of these worldly hassles and make u believe in the eternal power..

dada: maate movie hai to dede

Aneesha: it shall lift u

dada: chalo mein chala

Aneesha: u will b free from the claws of sinful aggravating consuming movies leading no good but only a waste of human time

u shall become a part of the inferno and delve into deeper pursuits

dada: nahi maangonga kabhi

my mistake

Aneesha: life is but a series of mistakes my friend..

come be part of this inferno n ur mistakes will turn into learnings

dada: u r writing good stuff

put it up on some blog

Aneesha: i have a blog u dumb creature only treating this all consuming mission as a write up... u shall learn... ur time shall also come... wiat patiently for the inferno to grab u

dada: u r wasting all these good literature on a dumb guy

upload it somewhere

ppl can read it soem migth make sense

mere ko to zaada samajh nahi aaya

Aneesha: thou shalt not remain dumb forever dear creature... ur estimate lies within the confines of this world!! look beyond.. reach out

breathe the new world

it's beckoning to u

let urself swirl in its arms... close ur eyes and let ur spirit lift from a mere 78mm to the size of the universe

come become a part of the inferno....

dada: arre ye inferno ne to paagal kar diya

saala ek baar mile na

zinda nahi jaane doonga

Aneesha: it is beckoning u..it wants not just to meets u but it wants u to become a part of it n then u shall experience freedom from maya

dada:u write rally well

put it up somewhere

Aneesha: the inferno is not want of description or recognition.. it just silently consumes

dada: arre phir se nahi

baki ka kaal

pukke se

Aneesha: :-D the inferno has spared u today... but tomorrow will be another day and yes tomorrow shall come...

dada: kal ka kaal dekhenge

Aneesha: the inferno lies silently waiting for its prey... freeing all slowly from all maya

And since dada so insisted, it's been put up right here!! Sending the link to dada!! :-D

I'm Blessed!

Just when u think that its going to be a quiet birthday with you sitting down to study (after all xams staring at u in the face!!), the world decides you need a touch of it's luv!!

My sweetheart of a roomie dragged along a friend against all his wishes to get me a cake (n trust me it was the yummiest cake!!). I knew about the cake part.. what i didn't know was that they even went alphabet hunting to write 'Happy Birthday Aneesha' On my wall!! For want of A's.. they turned U's upside down and slashed I's right thru to make an A!! (i'm still wondering what would have happened had my name been full of out of stock B's!!) :-D

A very dear friend and my roomie had been conspiring all day and well, when I walked the plank, I fell into a sea of happiness and laughter and good wishes!! 2 totaly scrumpciouly yummy cakes, lotsa hugs, choclate cream war paint, rudolph's cherry on my nose and few bday bumps later I figured I am happy to be 23!!!

(conspirator 1)

(conspirator 2)

Yes.. i sed a few bumps!! (for how long can u lift a 70kg amazon??!!) :-D

Daddy called up his li'l girl sharp at 12 (surprise surpise 'coz wen i'm home, I'm the one who wakes him up from slumber for any bday anniversary etc!) Isn't he the best?! Calls followed from mum and a few dear friends! (no, none from the man of my dreams yet!!)

I was continuously smilin!!! U can say my face was frozen into a grin at least for the day!!!

My buks and me had become estranged in the same room and on the same bed! I would not look at them and sat there silently without allowing even a single page to flutter! (and today i'm writin my blog!! mera kal k exam me kya hoga!!!??)

A very dear friend came in the evening and treated me to some wonderful food and cold coffee followed by a game of chess! (no i don't know how to play it, I was jus foolin around and troublin him! :-D) Armed with a wonderful bunch of flowers I walked back into the hostel to some envious eyes! (yeah.. I'm being a bad girl!!)

(bhoj and our game of chess!)

Guys... ur the best! Tona (for being so special that all my days are always special), Mini (>-----:D------<), Nitika (you are an angel!), Neeraj (for making them realize that smiling is uncharacteristic when it comes to me - I can only grin!), Anant-Jeet-Dalal-Anubhav (for being there hamesha n makin my day special), CT (ya u too even though u ran away when I was cutting the cake), Shekhar (:-D), Tushar (especially you being dragged out and making my day special) , Ruchi (for not sayn anythn even tough I left u in mid air n gosh that must've hurt!), Bhoj, Ankur (for callin from so far away n tellin me u'll be here in december!), Pallavi (my newly found big sis!), Buddhi (and of course Ria), Vaibi (even though the 2 of u forgot my bday!), AK, Akhil (who still thinks my bday is on 6th sept!), Kandu (ya ur half asleep wishes meant a lot me!), Sam(hee.. hee.. i will not say more), Biru (for calling me the most feared and most loved in the same sentence), nattu (for rachin out n puttin his hand overhead and blessing me with a world of joy!), all of you who tried to give me bday bumps, all of you who wished me well... all of you out there!! Luv ya all soooooooooo............. much! Special thanx to nishu, shekhu and yogi for the chorus happy bday and the music of the year award definitly goes to Dada!! Yup there's Uncle who was the first to wish me and motu who refused to wish me!! I hope I havn't skipped any names here! (If I have doesn't mean u aren't there in my heart! ur always there... my lil world needs u hamesha!)

(A happy me and my bunch of roses!)

Today's update!!

Updated today - the previous three posts!!!

Was wanting to write in for quite sometime, but it just wasn't happening!! It all pours out today!!

Moment of Truth!

Ever had a prof play the song, 'we don't need no education' on a blaupunkt speaker from within a 4x4 Mahindra Scorpio rite in ur face with the lyrics scrollin over on a Toshiba Toughbook??!!

Flashback: We had the last lecture of services marketing today! (i'd rather - tonite!!). After taking us through the theory on 3 chapters from the book he shows us stuff he did to the Bullet Enfield showroom and how he marketed it!! How he created a state of the showroom, how the sound of the bullet was captured on an ecg like thing, how 'blow jobs' are given to a bullet (largely described how wen u blow air onto the weiser of a bullet nothn happens to you coz it creates a bubble around you and ur safe!! :-D), how a bullet and bull horns are the same and what he did to put all of it in the place where he displayed the bullets, how and why he used the petrol tanks hung from a mesh to show the colors of the bike (yup - the bullet comes in various colors and one of it is even ornage!!), how the various sounds of a bullet can be heard by using a mechanical stetho, how the smallest of detail was given attention to and how a dream was converted into a state of the art reality - how services are marketed - hands on!! No words whatsoever are sufficent to describe what we saw!! If the documantation could do that to us, imagine what the experience can do to you!!!

After that he asks us 1 question which constitutes our end term exam - 'What is service Marketing???' Write what you want.... that's it!!

The grand finale: The man takes us to the Institute entrance, makes us bend to our right as far as we can and then makes us do it again, only a lil further this time! If the body with all it's limitations can do it then just think what the mind can do??

He then plays the song, 'we don't need no education' on a blaupunkt speaker from within a 4x4 Mahindra Scorpio rite in ur face with the lyrics scrollin over on a Toshiba Toughbook. His parting words - You don't need a teacher to teach you Services Marketing! It was nice knowing ya! Stay in touch!! And he floats away into the night (that we all will remember) in his 4x4!!!

ERP!!

Well... a class full of all kinds of nuts n wierdos n 1 jahlli like me who's obsessed with her cellphone and has decided to write some stuff in her notebook for a change! (only it's not class note, it's this post!) N the prof is curoiusly lookin at her wondering, "What's with her?? My slides not that good that she writin stuff down!!!"

15 minutes into the lecture, the sandman has sprinkled sand in all our eyes and 50% of the wierd creatures I mentioned are in Zzzz.... land! My chair by that time has realized that I weigh some 70 odd kgs and is merrily squeaking under me with the tiniest shift so now playing on the ERP jukebox is, 'The droning prof n squeaky student!'

Ok.. another some minutes into the crazy lecture and it's beauty check time: some are lookin at their hands (guys as well), some are diiging their nose (eeks!!), some are playing with their dity fungal infected beards, some are cleaning their nails, removing ear wax etc! Some have breakfast stuck in their teeth (how does idli get stuck in your teeth and why is it green???). The leg shakers are merrily making a milk shake out of themselves and a mexican wave of rubbing eyes and yawns ensues!! 10 heads on the desks and 3-4 under the table.. dreamland express!!

Homicide!! (Genocide for that matter!) The prof asks a question! hell.. who was litening!!!! Faces deperately search each other..'Say sumthin Goddammit.. kuh to bolo!!!!' A muffled voice mumbles sumthing... the prof gives up and gets back to his drone!!!

Buzzzzzzzz................................................!!!!

Hamari kahani!

One of those lectures where you figure that there has jus got to be sumthn better to do than listen to the guy in front speaking his heart out and well... this happens:

'There was once a lil boy, he went into th jungle, there he met a witch, she made him sit on his broom and took him away, she made him sweep her house with the broom, the kid woke up from his dream, he saw a broom in his window, he got inspired and started sweeping his room, his inspiration crossed all limits and he sat on the broom and jumped off wanting to fly.. well! he fell to the ground!! Back in bed now, with all his hands n feet broken, his girlfriend calls, she is actually a witch! He talked to her on the hands free coz his hands n feet were all broken! She asked him, 'how wuz ur trip on the broom?'. He sed wat u askin... cme n see na!'

Relax! It's a bunch of MBA's here behaving like pre schoolers n tryin to make a story one line each... thankfully Tushar broke in with the case analysis and we all started listening!!!!!!

She painted!

Well... yes it's dun.. n they say its lukn good!!

She's happy.. right from the insides!! all fuzzy wuzzy n warm!! :-)

Someone even told her she should never ever give up painting coz the painting shows that she's happy wen she's at it!! (thanx shekhar!)

She spent more than an hour cleaning up the mess... n then sat back, relloked at it, n smiled! (n she's been smilin stupidly since!)

Lucky me!!

Another one of those days when you realize how lucky you are!!

The so many people who believe in my dreams... I jus said I wanna paint! And mini came with me to buy the paints (we made a special trip jus for that), Shekhar egged me on continuously.. (read comments!)! Then Ankur - he jus believes so much in me... he already thinks it'll turn out awsum!! Then thrs a dear friend..Pallavi.. who again knows exactly what i'm talkin about!!

Luv ya all ya!! You guys are the reason I've always said, "Hope is the hatrack I hang my dreams upon!"

Joyful!

She's happy today...

She went out with a girl buddy n did female things n had loads of fun together!!

She met an old buddy and they went out together and he took her around his home and office!! It's so nice to see friends doing well in life and still being so sown to earth about it!! That man has positively no airs and graces!! He's one guy who she won't talk to for weeks, but wen she needs him, he's never more than 15 mins away!!!

She talked to another buddy and his to be..!! Gosh! Talk about made for each other!! They're purrrrrrrrrfect!! (oopsey... nazar na lage!) She's a complete sweetheart and has been pet names AK (47 if u please!)

And... she painted!! :-)

I miss u...

she sits in silence... it's a day wen the world around her is making loud noises and celebrating friendship! But she's missin someone...

She's missing her bestest buddy who she's grown up with, laughed and cried, shared ALL her secrets with, turned to at any given point... still calls her up wen she's lonely... she misses the pastries, the kinetic rides, bunking lectures once ur there, giggling like two gone cases, drives by the lake, following cars jus coz u luv the car, chhedoing guys, fighting, standing by each other, luvn each other, makin fun of the world n of each other, being truthful, being called lesbians, goin all over the cityon the kinetic and back again coz we wud never plan our trips, being in rival schools and having jaws drop at our awsum friendhip, the nariyal laddus at her place n the biscuit pudding at mine, boyfriend trouble, boyfriend gossip even, male bashing sessions, shopping, not likin anythn at all wen we're shopping and spending all the money accessible wen we r at it, been complete hooligans, trying our hand at sophistication, time spent at cafechino, all th coffees, chocolates and pastries, me treatin her on her bday and she me on mine, dreamin the same dreams, thinkin different thoughts, buggin both our mothers to the core, exploring unknown parts.... always, ALWAYS being there for each other... (luv u babes... miss u so much... we jus have to get together on diwali ya....!!) biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..................................g hug!! n u better remember to have that pastry today!!!

Then there's this nut sittin in the UK who keeps tryn all the wierd hairstyles but who's got all the time in thw world to leave everythn n listen to her.... in sum of her tuffest times he's been there jus silently listening wen she vents it all out on him.... she's seen him thru a few moments as well n tats wats strengthened their bond! She can call him up at nay wierd hour and he's there... he'll listen to her... he knows this nut stays in a hostel and dsnt have money so he cuts her call n calls her... he answers all the wild n crazy questions she keeps askin him and he's the kind of friend if u have, u call urself blessed!!

Then there are a few nuts who share a flat in mumbai n mean the world to this girl! They'r always there... pillars you can fall back on!! Not 1, but 3 so u can imagine my support system!! n always up for a nice fun time!!

There's also one oldie who calls this girl 'gudiya' n she loves it! He's a woman charmer! But a great adviser... in sum of the stickiest situations he'll come up wit the easisiest solutions!! We call him narad... :-D for reasons we'd rather keep to ourselves!

Thn there's her pyara motu!! Jitna bolo utna kam hai... he's scolded her wen i've dun wrong and laughed wit her too... He's the sweet fellow who dsnt bare his heart to everyone.. she's glad she's one of the lucky few.. she jus wants to say to him, "I'm always there"!

Then there's this guy who had a hard time deciding wen and how to propose, she helped him out n now he's a happy man! She's glad she touched his life... wat he dsnt knw is he's touched hers too...in more ways than one!!

Then there's vaibi, bhoj, kaicker, AT, Shraddha and a host of wonderful people who've touched her life!! All she wants to say is, "Happy Friendhip Day! It's coz of you that each day of my life is a celebration!"

Luv ya all... dosti wala! :-)

i wanna paint!!

:-)

nothn much.... tryn to find sum meaning around me... sumthn in actions and words... jus anythin... sumthn a wee bit more than jus trudgin along!

As providence wud have it.. was back after dinner when MITE came with his kinetic and Shekhar pounced that i wanna learn!! Well, yours truly sat behind him and taught him and by the third round he was perfect!! The smile on his face and the twinkle in his eyes is probably all that i needed to find my meaning... it made me happy from the insides!! :-)

Thanx Shekhar! In a world so full of itself, it's nice to see such a happppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee smile n shiny twinkle!!

Her Pillar! :-)

How and why the most boring lectures induce me to write, I will never know!! Well here goes.....

A wisp of white
A shallow puddle
The tiniest rainbow
A smile of hope!

A dream so big
Stars so high
Wishes unlimited
Her li'l heart sighs!

Her head on his shoulder
A comforting hug
Twinkling eyes
Smiling back at him!

They walk to togther
now & forever
An angel's halo
and a happily ever after!

From a friend...

Here's something a friend wrote n showed it to me... Personally, I luv the way his heart pours out into the stuff he writes.. This one's a dedication for someone he respects a lot! (yup, this is your ode Ankur! keep writing buddy!!):

An Ode to a Guide, a Leader, a seeker, a believer, an inspirer… A Friend

Lots of words to write… lot of thoughts to flow…

But now when I am doing it… Just can’t find words to show…

But one thing’s for sure… we’ll live in your Afterglow…

How do I start…? I am a little confused…

No PJs for you… to which you are so used… J

Last autumn it was... when I stepped into this team…

Since then Malini… You have made the journey very much like a pleasant Dream…

I was a little shaky... But you were the perfect guide…

Nurturing me, bringing out my best... Not giving up when I was at my worst…

With patience my potential you envisaged… n direction you gave, when I lost my way…

A coach… a tutor… a mentor… a Guide…

A friend, a philosopher, a treasure far n wide…

An in born Leader that you really are… coordinating with devotion and an unending zeal…

An Inspiration for most of us by far… pragmatic in the ways that you deal…

So comfortable you make it look… even when the things go really crook… J

Humbly today I declare… you are leaving behind a well-paved way

For us to sail and fly our mast!

My heart says today… it will not let down; the Broadway you have set for us…

New goals to seek, more dreams to pour…

Wish you all the best for new heights to soar

With the confidence that cultivates in you… there lots of success in store for you..

I hope the thread that binds us… Always be there…

I pray to God one more time… where you are, he always takes care…

With these words I cap my pen…

Where ever you go… May sunshine reign

Some day… somewhere… see you again…

Double Standards!!

This is as lame as it gets!! Screw the Govt.!! What a patheticcally half baked thing to do??!! Like a terrorist who can access blogs cannot have an email??!!! gosh!! talk about myopia and the Indian Govt is tops!!!

Here's an interesting article dated May 2005 that states that the Indian Govt wants to promote blogs... follow the link! http://www.asiamedia.ucla.edu/article.asp?parentid=24445

I mean seriously ya.. talk about crazy *#%/*#& double standards!!!!!

" "

A silent prayer of thanks escapes her heart... all the people she loves are fine!! (ref: Mumbai Blasts)

She's quiet... not her usual self... still a li'l anxious... she's not sure why...

She stands in her balcony and looks beyond to see a train passing between the greens and wonders... 'will this too turn to scream and smoke?'

She looks closer to home... a green meadow... lots of trees... almost paradise (but not quite)... she wonders...

'Dekhiye to lagta hai, zindagi ki raahon me ek bheed chalti hai...
Sochiye to lagta hai, bheed me hai sab tanha...
Vo jo muskuraate the... jo kisi ko khwabon me apne paas paate the...
Unki neend tooti hai... aur hain vo ab tanha!'

Another prayer escapes her heart, a prayer to bless the souls and families of those who lost a dear one yesterday...

She bows her head and walks inside...

Peace!

I just want something to believe in
Ah - it's a lonely lonely road I'm on
This side of paradise
-Bryan Adams

Come accross a moment in time where you've created your own haven? Let the world go beserk... you're ok 'coz you know what you have to do n you know how to get there?!

People comin, people talkin, people laughing (yeah you laugh with them), people screaming (you hear it...), people politicking (you don't even bother....), people running (so..??), people killing time (like it makes a difference...?), people just about doing anything (don't know, don't care!!)...

You've receded to your space... or maybe you've spaced out... but it's a great feeling rite? PEACE!!

Renaissance

Just went back in time a lil and came back with these two poems. These lines have been resonating in my heart for quite some time now; thought i'll put 'em down here...

Dreams
-Kendra Gayle Nowell

A lost young petal
Wondering souls
I see the dream you seek
Follow me please, if you dare.
The dream is coming
For you and me.
I return by your side
With a heart in my hand.
It is like a bright fire dancing
To the slow music turning.
My heart as smooth as ivory
Has turned to a lonely, sulfur.
I retire my heart now to you,
Love me because I love you.

Here's the other one... (dunno who it's by - but its pretty amazing)

The red rose whispers of passion,
and the white rose breaths of love;
O, the red rose is a falcon,
and the white rose is a dove,
But I send u a cream-white rosebud
with a flush on its petal tips.
for the love that is purest and deepest,
has a kiss of desire on the lips!

Don't ask why they ring in my heart - they just do!!

An ode to "Him"!

There's a dream in her eyes
and a wish in her heart...
She holds 'his' hand,
and walks life's path...

She knows his hands are there,
they always will be.
She feels a warmth
in their embrace...

His hand touches her head,
she looks up at 'him',
the smile in his eyes
meets the sparkle in hers...

Hearts touch souls
and bring them together.
Along life's road
they walk... a single soul!!

Tick tock tick tock

You know it's seriously amazing how i can never remember what date it is if i don't have a darned gadget to remind me or flash it in my face!!!

Something as simple as not remembering the date can really make you feel hopelessley lost - you feel like a misplaced molecule floating somewhere between time and it's gravitational confines!! Now you'll ask me gravity?? time?? duh??!!

Well..don't ask - I somehow believe that the only thing that confines us in a specific time frame is gravity.. it pulls you and keeps you in place so that time is the ultimate master!!

Think about it.. how much is your life goverened by time? Deadlines, exams, submissions, LAST DATES!!! Running running running all 'coz ur always running out of time!! N then you want to stop and smell the roses... you talk of quality time... spending some quiet moments with your ownslef...

Umm.. I guess it's nice being that lost molecule kabhi kabhi!! :-D

A tribute to Mowgli...!

Mowgli - the sweetestest dog in this whole wide world! Love u mowgu... miss u...

:-) i'm back! (somewhere i wish i wasn't though!)

she walks in beauty like the rain...

dunno... jus had to write this line down! it's been playin in my head for days on end now!!

A happy two months come to a close, i reminisce! Trials, work (yeah yeah yeah - i did sum work for a change!), joys, experiences, words, smile, playful banter, childish pranks, home cooked food, some extremely unforgettable moments!!

It all started on the morning of April 10, 2006 with me being late for my first day of work! For once i'd say lucky me!! 'coz being late meant i got to skip the induction program!!

My first steps into Patni's most famed office!! cliched yes, but i swear my knees were knocking!!! Wiated for the high n mighty HR guy to meet me n take me thru the various processes so that i could then come everyday n work without bugging him!! He redirected me eventually to my "mentor!" a.k.a "God!". Turns out i had a friendly God!! He believed in not giving me work n suprise surprise! I believed in sumhow getting work!!! (close ur mouths! u guys look pathetic all open mouthed n staring into the comp!!)

Friday happened - first friday in this crazy city where i was still tryin to find my steps! Dint have an office bus pass yet so wuz rouging it out with the citybuses!!! Well, jus as luck would have it (there's a reason i sometimes call myself JINXED) the buses decided to go on strike! Bina stipend ke gareeb bachhi mumbai ki sadko pe akeli!! Hee hee... The drama queen at her bestest!! Well twasn't so bad - got to office sum how by jus spending 30 bucks!! (it pays to be stingy sumtimes). Lady luck shined on the poor shrivelled soul and the child got her bus pass on monday!!

Friday in office - ekdum cool! bole to mastam!! No kaam dhaam - party mood! All sats r off and Fri is "Oye balle oye! party sharty!!" So effectively i "worked" jus 4 days a week!!

Met a few characters at Patni! The biggest of them all being this guy we called "Uncle!" for specifically the reson that he looked like one the father of 5 kids, 2 toddlers, 1 teen, 1 in college n the last one married!! Uski baaton se to "God help" kinda situation!Then there were a lot of nice ppl like Prach (seemed like she wuz the only sane one n thank god she wasn't the very ladki kind of ladki! :-D), Neeraj (his takiya ka alarm wuz "ye sab kya ho raha hai!" kaafi koshish karta tha ladki ko line maarne ki par har baar koi uski zindagi me love trianglr hi bana deta tha), arjun (another uncle! but sweet! the tc kinds, but used to baanto faltu gyan!!), puru (the choclate boy who cud charm anyone!) n bala (iim-k breed! class decency n a vast admiration for life!)! Hey guys, been amazing getn to knw ya! all the otrhers too... :-)

Dicovered the most amazing Bakery u cud come across!! (dedicated to Mini) u can sit there alll day n grin away to glory through choclataty goo!!!

Well, she was close to walking inbeauty by the rain - she was at worli sea face with the sea spray in her hair!

my last night in the city, shit i dint wana leave! it's like this one city that doesn't leave you... sach hi hai, 'u can take a man oit of mumbai but you can't take mumbai out of a man!!'

tried... just can't write!!!

tried n tried n tried!!!! it's not happening!!!!

change?!

Here's a thought...

"Sometimes one of the hardest things of all is seeing things as they really are. Could have beens, should have beens, ought to bes, can't believe it isn'ts -- all these cloud our vision of the world around us. But seeing through these various illusions is the first step toward accepting things as they are. It could also be the most difficult. And why is it important to accept things as they are? Only then can you engage with the real world, which is the only way to really make any necessary changes."

(credit: astrology.com)

Juggling!

Sometimes in life you just end up juggling so much that ultimately u want some of it to go out of the loop… u wish it would just fall and roll off without disturbing the other stuff in the looop… but thats not wat happens does it?

If something does fall out of the loop of its own accord or 'coz you force it to then the show stops… maybe for the slightest li'l moment.. but then, it does stop! And that stop can sometimes be more dangerous than switching of a life support system for a mere 30secs. All the balance that you tried so hard to achieve goes kaput in some measly seconds…

Where do you restart? Which piece do you pick up and set rolling in the air again? How long before u gain momentum?? How long before it goes back to the start?

Well... I guess these are the questions life answers somewhere along the way....

(yes coldplay – Nobody sed it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard! I’m going back to the start!!)

kaam!!

2 days of work!!! good stuff... already feels like 'yaar kitna seekh liya and kitna kitna kitna kuch hai seekhne ko!!!'

The big boss wants to meet me tomorrow... so I'm a li'l jittery...
The immediate boss is happy with my work!!! :-)
(hooray! party!!!!)

Mumbai nagariya - bhai dog bite hua tha jo yahan training li!!! (someone special would say "koi na dog bite madam, aapko pyar hua hai!")

Antop Hill se 341 --> Saki Naka se 307 ya 334 ya 347!! Vapas aate waqt stilll trying to explore. Powaii is close by... and is a huge temptation! (for the obvious reason that its so close to where the love of my life stays!!!)

PS - I'm having fun! Its an experience all of its own! :-D

inside the heart...

Sitting alone... the light of a few lamps... (a few outside, a few million inside)...

thoughts - a li'l more sane today
want - of someone to understand my reasons...
wish - for 'him' to never know them...
tears - a few... (can't tell you why!)
smiles - many.. for somewhere my heart knows i'm doing the right thing
more smiles - of all my memories
fear - nopes
sadness - a no again
emptiness - the biggest yes wud be small
loneliness - is a state of mind
happy - feeling a warmth but a crazy cold at the same time!!

well... such is life!

just two lines

a quiet shattering of her chains...
a black robe and a sparkle in her eye...

(thats all i wanted to write today, u all probably know the reason why!)

"_________"

silently she speaks,
without saying a word...

her heart, the epitome of love!
her thoughts, a raging tempest!

her eyes, soft pools of dew!
her soul, a steely silver!

her gaze, the shining winter sun!
her stare, an impenetrable fire!

silently she speaks,
without saying a word...

The light!!

Ok... here's something my stupid, strat-man and organizational behaviour filled brain just came up with:


All of us have an inner light... this is the light that guides us, lights our path, keeps us warm, happy and aglow! There are moments when the bulb fuses or the tubelight goes black (depends on what you prefer to be!)! :-D

It's in these moments that the Big Guy up there turns on his hi-power bulb and is there with us till an electrician comes and repairs our light! (the electrician of course being a bestest buddy)

Wat say???

inner silence..?????

Outside is a wonderful calm... a quietly cradling breeze...
Inside is chaos... a humongous mass of differentially melted metal...

A war... to cut lose of the chains that bind... some human, some metal!

A wish to walk on the grass and feel the dew... alone...

A song to sing... just so as to belt out the notes in the heart! (happy or sad, good or bad)

A need... to cut loose of all needs!!!

I know I'm sounding dark and enslaved... won't say I'm not feeling like that... just a phase maybe... or maybe I really need to break free!! Muddled still... a silent tempest raging inside...!